Feeling really crap today. Sometimes it helps to talk about it, but I'm not very good at that either. Slept in and after a cup of coffee I thought I'd put on a nice dress to go to the shops. I thought the distraction would help. It didn't. In fact I started to tense up the minute I got out of my car, tried to slow my breathing but just felt worse with each step. (social anxiety). Had to get a script from the chemist and had the intention of doing a bit of shopping while I waited but I couldn't breathe so I ended up sitting in my car and listening to music. That calmed me down but then I couldn't stop crying. Just feeling sorry for myself I guess. I hate feeling like this. I don't have anyone to talk to as I've become a total A hole and have no friends thanks to my mood disorder and long term depression and anxiety. Probably serves me right and I deserve everything I get. Sick of these mood swings. Already talked it over with doc. Says to amp up the dose again. Then I think what's the point really? I should go try another psych but I can't seem to change who I am so why bother trying. I'm so tired of everything.
I have some Oracle Cards - I pick one every night and have it there for the next day - sometimes doing the 3 card read.....I've had the same pack for years now....see others in stores, but as they are all boxed up, I can't really tell what's inside...and whether they'll be what I want! glad you are spreading your fairy dust around here - yes by all means, hold my hand....please!
