ok so when i was little i was ur typical 'smart, shy kid.' everyone knew me based on my results on tests and exams. that was probably the only reason they were so nice to me, cause i was so shy i couldnt even speak. then a few years later, i met this guy. he opened my eyes to the world, and made me realise that i should come out of my shell. so i did. he made me laugh so hard i cried, and around him i felt safe and happy. the world seemed so much brighter when he was in it. i became one of the 'popular crew' and everything in life felt like it was picking up. that year was grad year, so the next year, everyone was going off on their separate paths in life. i was separated from all my friends. it was weird, cause one minute i could be happy, and laugh like i used to, but the next? i remembered those times where i was truly happy, and everything else seemed like a waste. i think its cause my friends became my family, in a way. not by blood, but by love. i loved every one of them, and i was torn away from them. they were kind of the only family i've ever known, because my blood family puts up all of these expectations that i cant reach anymore. the pressure is getting to me now. it was probably the same before, but back then i had my friends to cheer me up when things got tough. now i have no one. i think im depressed, but i havent told anyone yet. i've left clues for people. i even told someone i was sad all the time, but they didnt pick up on it. what hurts the most is that no one even notices that something is wrong. they just go on, thinking their lives are tough, and im here, sad and depressed.
