Hi Kima, thankyou for reaching out to us and I'm glad you've done so because it's such an important (& difficult) step to admit that you need help. We've all been there and it takes courage and bravery so kudos.
I often get the same way - can't even think of leaving the house and dealing with people. The issue looks so so huge and I bet you're wondering where to even start. You don't have to tackle it all at once, you know? You can break it down into small steps. Go for a short walk. Come back inside. That's proof you can do something.
Next time, take a slightly longer walk. Maybe stop past a cafe and grab a coffee or a tea. Come back home. Small incremental steps are what work best, not big leaps into the abyss. As for your support - you said you feel like you have nobody to depend on but it sounds like your husband is incredibly supportive. It's hard for family to understand some things they don't experience personally, but that doesn't mean they care any less.
As for the mental health plan and seeing a psych - I hope it comes in quickly. Be open and honest with whoever you speak to. Just like I said - a psych will help you break down your problems and solve them with you, getting to the bottom of issues you don't fully understand. But seriously, just try and get out for a bit. Get some fresh air, clear your head and maybe you'll start seeing the world a little differently.
