I need to get this off my chest

[Braxiatel81]

I need to say right at the start that I just need to get this off my chest.

I have anxiety, depression, bi-polar and I'm not coping...I'm over it.

I don't want any more help...its not working.

Everything I do is impacting my family and my friends and all the strategies and sessions and meds are not working. Its all happening still and its impacting my family, my friends and my colleagues. Its not fair on them and I am over it. I don't know what to do and all I want to do is crawl into a corner and cry. I don't want to talk about it anymore, I don't those looks of sympathy, those looks of "I don't know what to say". I don't want to be included in the world anymore..i want to be me, away from everyone that I make frustrated and angry. I don't know what to do other than to write this down and get it off my chest. No one else I know is like this and I can't deal with professionals anymore.

[highlysensitivepersonhsp]

What would you say to a friend who is feeling this way?

My urge is to try and comfort you, but maybe you just need to work through it on your own.

When I was really sick, I couldn't see the forest for the trees. I couldn't see how supportive my mother was to me. I pushed her away. I pushed the doctors way. I rejected everyone. I thought that no one understood what I was going through. I was being totally unreasonable.

Then I took up cognitive behavioural therapy and learned that my mind can play tricks. Sometimes I see what I want to see. I lose myself in my thoughts and beliefs, unable to be objective and reasonable.

Gently, I challenge myself to the truth...they know exactly what I'm going through. They wait patiently for me to see reason. It is I who gets impatient with things. With myself and others. With the situation.

Slowly I return to normal, whatever that is for me, and I get on with my life.

Read some other posts. Spend a little time helping others here on the forum. That's what I do to put my problems into perspective.

Anyway, I hope you find a path to self compassion and acceptance of where you are right now. I hear your utter frustration. Sickness is like that. It frustrates you. Learning how to live with it takes self understanding and a sense of realism.

Hoping you find your way.

Sandra.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Braxiatel81, welcome back to the forums.  We hope you feel better having posted and gotten those feelings off your chest.

When you return, we would suggest adding to your previous thread rather than carrying this one on. It can be difficult for the community to keep up with your story if you have a lot of threads going at once, and you may find yourself having to repeat information if your story is spread across the forum - sometimes our members will be repeating themselves as well if it's an issue you've had previously.  

You can help us to support you by keeping to one thread, even if you're returning here after a period of time.  There's a lot of value in seeing how someone's story evolves over time, and when facing a new crisis it's helpful to scroll back and see how you've coped previously.

Here is a link to your earlier thread:

New here and need to unload

[Braxiatel81]

Sorry about that. I didn't think of it.

[Ladyhawke]

I understand what it's like to feel you're standing in one spot and nothing is working for you (I've been in treatment for major depressive and anxiety disorder for 20+ years & BPD and ADD for just over three years).

I get it that you've had enough advice for the moment. The forums are an excellent way of venting how you feel and it is such a supportive, non-judgmental way of connecting to others. My only comment (not advice) is to try to remain open to possibilities.

Regards, LH