For the last two years my life has been in turmoil.
My mum died, then my gran, I got diagnosed with depression, then my partner of 8 years became addicted to ice, that resulted in him losing his senses and becoming literally crazy.
Then the police raided our house twice, which was really traumatic because both times I was home by myself and they tore my home apart. I have never committed a crime in my life.
I then found myself in lockup and then in court getting a drugs charge purely because I live in the same house as my partner. (I do not use drugs of any kind)
Things seemed to come good for a little while- my partner got clean, I saw a psychologist and took medication which all helped.
Now, however, things seem worse than ever.
I haven't seen my partner in a week or heard from any other family or friends. I have never experienced loneliness like this and it is crippling. I feel trapped in this misery.
Even my pets, hobbies and friends all of which has always helped me so much- I now feel like I hate them all.
I feel so isolated but I am stuck.
I decided to leave my partner, I packed my things but now I feel like I have no where to go. Which is making me feel more isolated.
The pain is so bad that I just don't know what to do anymore.
Throughout everything that has happened, its like I am always standing still and all this stuff just happens around me and I cant do anything about it.
Is life really meant to be this hard?
