I feel sh**, anyone else?

[youcantknow]

So every few weeks or so i have s shit week or so. like i don't want to move or really do anything, i just feel sad down and crappy i don't want to smile or even laugh. i always struggle with energy and happiness but I'm usually really good at faking it but drunk this time i cant fake it there is zero energy left to even try. i do everything to make my self feel better eg; walk my dog, run, paint, exercise, yoga, hang with those i love, journal, meditate. i have anxiety but never really thought that i might have depression until my dad said something about it i don't know tho? my head feels sick, it lost and hate myself more than ever, i cant really be bothered. with. life anymore!!

[therising]

Hi youcantknow

Your dad sounds supportive in suggesting the depression angle. A lot of parents would poo poo the idea of depression, rather than raise the possibility.

Depression can definitely be life altering and energy zapping (putting it mildly). It can take the mind, body and spirit on a roller coaster ride of interactive side effects and sometimes torture. It is my personal wish that everyone knew exactly how intricate depression is in its workings and how it impacts folk in a myriad of ways. Actually, my 1st wish would be that no one have to experience such torture in the first place.

I personally believe the more we learn about our self the more skillful we become in managing our self. This leads to the question as to whether you have access to any mental health professionals (aka guides in self-understanding). Is this something you would consider if you haven't already?

I understand it may not help to hear the following but I've added it in the hope that it does help: Although depression can feel soul-destroying, I believe its intention to be ego-destroying instead. All those false and destructive beliefs we accumulate, in regard to our self, seem to liberate the soul only when they are completely discarded. When those beliefs come to weigh us down, they can take us to the very depths of despair. When those same beliefs are discarded, there is nothing to weigh us down. Again, understanding who/how you came to be (self-understanding) is the key to rising.

Take care youcantknow

[youcantknow]

thankyou for your kind. and realistic words! Do you think i should see somebody? or is it nothing?

[therising]

Hi youcantknow

You should definitely consider seeing someone who has the ability to support and guide you in the best possible way. Seeing your local GP is typically the first port of call in regard to getting a referral for a mental health professional.

It's important to keep in mind the fact that everyone is different, so finding the best fit for you when it comes to support could be a trial and error process. For myself, as an example, a one on one counselor and then a psychiatrist didn't quite do the trick (these do work for some); it was actually group therapy which took me out of my 15 year battle with depression. Recently, I needed what I would regard as a 'tune-up', as I could sense myself teetering on the edge of depression again. This time I went off to see a life/spiritual coach (who I'd met briefly in the past). Glad I reconnected with him, as he made all the difference in guiding me along the best possible path. Maintenance is not just a physical thing (exercise, the right food etc), I believe it is also a mental and spiritual thing.

Something else, so very important to keep in mind, is the fact that we would never define our self by a broken leg, a ruptured appendix or any other physical challenge we face, so why should we define our self by the mental challenges we face. We are so much more than a brain in a state of crisis or dis-ease. There is a reason behind all pain, behind the symptoms known as anxiety and depression.

Take care