i don't want to live but afraid to die

[randomguy81]

im scare to admit this to anyone in real life, im always lost and confused i feel ashamed to be here, i been taking sleeping tablets to help with the pain but lately they haven't been working

am i alone in this feeling?

[Sophie_M]

Hey Rg, 

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums, It takes a lot of courage to be so open and honest with your feelings, and we are so glad that you have reached out here tonight. Please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space and our community is here to support you through this difficult time. If you feel up to it, we'd encourage you to reach out to our Beyond Blue Support Service, which is available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.  You are not alone here, and we hope that you keep us updated on how you're going whenever you feel able.

[Guest9337]

Morning randomguy81.

When my dad died I later that night took a sleeper to assist with sleeping away from the pain.

Which pain are you self-medicating for?

love dng

[randomguy81]

my thoughts, my mind wont stop thinking so i struggle to sleep

[Guest9337]

Yo. rdm81.

Ruminating thoughts is what you are describing and there are a few options for that experience.

One option is to think about really challenging to you things. Like if you find maths hard, then do maths until you are exhausted and can sleep. Try to do it in your head too, yep mental maths.

Another options is the movement field. Go for walk, do lots push ups, wearing oneself out physically some how.

third option is to start putting timed boundaries on allowing yourself to ruminate... something like, I can ruminate on friday night for 10 minutes after dinner. Whatever boundaries u want/need/ think might work.

Do u have a partner or friend to communicate with just before sleep?

love dng.