I don't know what I get to Bipolar or Depression or anything else?

[anqly]

Hi, I am An

This is not easy for me to get communicate and reach my feeling to people here. First at all I must apologies for my poor English.

I don't know what I get to, It's been like a week or more I don't know. I have been sad, insecure, depress and untrusted to people.

Whenever I playing game or working on design I didn't think anything but when I leave it, I keeps thinking and worries about my relationship matters. I do not have much friend (just one at the moment) I like to make friend with local people to talk in English but those people won't stay long they keep ignore or barely talking with me.

My family is another story. I been with them like forever I just finally move out last year and when I with them we talking in Vietnamese. I didn't go out or make any friend because they never gave me a break time to make friend. my life was work, home and study. 24/7 is a big circle and it makes me sick. I am a type of person like to out and see how the world running, want to trying and knowing everything (yes I am very open person)

So go back to friendship, I do go out to know people, I did to use social network I also did try hookup app (I know most people here is not worth to know) but people like just chatting little bit and do not talk again. newest thing here I have know a person on social network we makes friend for long time but never talk (just play game together) then I contact him talking a bit and everything very cool yes like a great conversation but then next day when I login back he is out of my friend list.

I was unbalance these days, very sad, unhappy and do not wanna do anything when I go to work it is very boring me and I just do not wanna do anything just do something boring to killing time. my workmate did try to cheer me up but it just work like a bit then I get down again.

My feeling very unstable now sometime high some time low and down I did not upsetting or feel tired. I just dont care and do not want to do anything at all. also I been less sleeping time like 4 or 6 hours only. this Monday I been stay awake until 3am and wake up at 6am.

I do not interesting to eat anything just eating because hungry and I did eat a bit.

I did book an appointment to see GP but it take like 20 days later.

I think I will take a day off tomorrow to sightseeing to cheer me up but I don't know is it make me better. I plan to watch a movie I love a most tmr but I scare a side effect. because I want to watch with my friend.

[Jugglin_Strugglin]

HI An,

Welcome to BB forums. It is a good place to 'talk' to people who understand how you are feeling. It is good that you have an appt for GP. 20d does seem like a long time away, have you tried ringing back and asking if you can get anything sooner? Sometimes they can have urgent appt times, but you might have to ask.

It must be hard for you with English as 2nd language. You have communicated your feelings very clearly. I understand exactly how you feel. I know that you want to meet people to talk in English, but maybe while you are sad, it might be best not to worry too much about this. It can be hard enough to talk about our feelings and find the right words to say in our native language, without having to try and think what word it is in English to explain how you are feeling.

How long have you been in Oz? You have family here, they can be a big help when we are feeling sad, if we can be open with them.

Do you have any Vietnamese friends here that you can talk to. What about in Vietnam? Now with social media, we are never far away from each other. I have not been to Vietnam, but I have friends who spent a while there. They loved it, and said the people were so friendly. It was 20yrs ago and they still keep in contact. Perhaps some Australians are not as friendly, but I guess there are always good and bad in everything.

It sounds as if you have been doing a lot to make friends here. Don't give up doing these things if you don't connect with a few people. I am sure this Is the same for everyone. We are all so different, so maybe only 1 person in 20 might be someone we have things in common with. It probably will be harder for someone from another country, because of the differences in culture and beliefs.

Do you have any hobbies or interests. You can try and find new things to do that relate to your interests, that way you will meet more people who enjoy the same things as you. Keeping yourself busy will help to stop you worrying too much.

I hope that you feel a bit better soon.

Lee

[Rujo]

Hi An,

May I ask what city / town your in?

I have experienced a few events that has lead to me having acute anxiety - I am in Brisbane and are currently looking at different avenues to tackle this, but I do realise that if you aren't located in a big city there may not be the same opportunities open to you. Having said that, I may be able to suggest some things for you to try.

Kind regards

Rujo

[anqly]

Thanks for greeting Lee,

They have full of booking and barely get cancel from this GP. I did not worry much but my friend ignores me or they reject my conversation it makes me sad and I keeps thinking about this.

I had been here for 8 years. and Yes I did try before when they go with me to translate for me because they worried I will not understand English. when I discuss my situation to doctor he just step in and he told me, I shouldn't talk about this matter to the doctor. To them, bipolar disorder is a Mental illness and they thinking its a terrible disease. I was holding it for 5 years long. They make me feel insecure to talk about my situation.

I do not have any Vietnamese friend or close to tell them anything I been through. I saw a lot of people but a good or close friend to tell them about my depression. we did not that close to handling all of this. I did believe our culture and belief is not a barrier here because I am very open-minded to talking about and understandable. I do not judge or hate anyone or anything at the first sight or the cover.

I did try all my hobbies but it just goes back after I finished and the emotions going down a lot more.

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Thanks Rujo,

I living in Melbourne a crow and big town. I live here because it is close to my work and my family. I do not like to live in city or big town because it is so noise. I love to live somewhere piece or quiet.

My feeling was better when I talking with my workmate but now its down again and I just hate this.

[159357]

I understand how this feels. I have no real friends and play videogames whenever i am not at school. I can barely sleep and barely eat, it worries me very much.

I honestly don't know how to help because i never went to a doctor because i do not want to waste their time. If trying hobbies doesn't work for you, try some new ones. (pen spinning, learn another language).

I think you might also be worried that you don't want to rely on video games to make yourself feel better, but remember not to put yourself into pain. Focus on improving yourself, friends are very important, but they can wait if they're not willing to become a good friend.

Good luck.

[Rujo]

Hi An,

Sorry for the delay. Im part of the Hill Song Church & I know the one here offers a program for people to improve their English, and you dont have to be part of the church to get involved. They also offer Counselling services & could probably give you some direction. I really think this may be a good step for you if your comfortable with it. Their Melbourne number is (03) 9318 4477. I hope this hrlos.

Kind regards, Rujo

[Rujo]

Hi ewrc,

Are you OK? From your post you seem like you might need to talk?

Rujo