I can't believe the level of my lonliness

[JayneS]

It has lead a very private person to spilling her guts online as she has no one left in her life. This is so embarrassing it must be my therapy! I have long term treatment resistant depression and was previously a superwoman caring for 4 others now reduced to someone who can only get out of bed to pay the bills. At 57 I know I will now remain single as I'm a recluse due to lack of confidence. I don't know what else to say really I wish I could turn my mind off and not feel the painful memories of the past as that's your only company. I wish everyone all the very best, I feel every waking minute of your pain, with love xx

[krsm]

Thank you for posting Jayne, and be proud not embarrassed you have the courage to reach out.

You have many years in front of you, please take it a day at a time and work on things to help you enjoy each one.

[nrg]

Thanks Jayne, i hope your'e doing well

[Ggrand]

Hello Jayne....

Welcome to the caring forums..

I can believe the level of your loneliness, as I have an overwhelming level of loneliness...I’m so sorry your feeling this way...

I cared for my family, then the kids got married and are stuck in their own worlds of caring for their children...They live over 7 hours drive away....Then my hubby passed away, who I cared for when he got cancer...Then all of a sudden I’m on my own..with my BP, depression, anxiety and a few more mh issues to cope on my own...You’re so right with memories, and when they are not happy memories, it’s so hard..

I’m 64 and will be on my own for the rest of my life, because of a very controlling narcissistic spouse, I have a fear of men and people in general...and my confidence and self esteem is hiding somewhere...has been for many many years...

I do have 2 little dogs, that do help with my loneliness most days..then there are days that I don’t want them around me..yet I love them so very much...

I have been here on the forums now for a few years, and here helps a lot with my loneliness, I can chat to people here and feel the care and love through there words...

I hope that being a member of this beautiful and caring community, that you can feel a little less lonely...

I am listening to you sweety, and when you feel like chatting, doesn’t matter what about..I’ll try my best to be here for you, and maybe we can help each other at times with our loneliness...

Sending you my care, love and some hugs lovely Jayne.🦋💜🤗..

Grandy...