HI BlackMetalDragon
I want to say welcome and that it is so great that you have reached out for some support and some comfort around this issue that I can hear is so very frustrating for you and also at a time when you are not feeling at your best, I am sorry you are going through this and that the only comfort you get is from sleeping.
Sometimes with all good intentions our "people" be it family or friends are trying and doing what they think is "best" for us, mostly without direction they get it wrong as we are all different and need different ways of support. I am sure this is the case with your caring and supportive family member, which by the way I am so very pleased you have. They can't understand what we are feeling and what we are going through and it is also doubly tricky when you find it so very hard to communicate when you are feeling extremely depressed, this I guess is where the tricky part for you is..trying to communicate when you are feeling like you can't communicate. So I am wondering that in a time when you are feeling well you can perhaps reflect on your depressive episodes and think about what you might need from this person at this time, and perhaps write it down. Whether it be a hug or a coffee or a movie or just sit with me, that way that empowers them to be able to help you in the way you need and it makes them feel like they are supporting you.
You are by no means doing anything wrong at all BlackMetalDragon, and nor is your family member, I think it is just a case of lack of communication, at a time when you can't communicate.
Big hugs to you and I am so glad you are here and have shared your frustrations with us, I am not sure if what I have mentioned is helpful but I am thinking of you at this tough time.
Please come back and chat if you would like to.
Hugs
AS
