Help?

[TJR]

I suffer from Anxiety, depression and PTSD and sometimes it gets really bad. but the main reason i am writing this right now is because lately I feel like I don't exist. I barely have any friends and the friends i always end up with end up leaving because of my mental health, i feel alone.

i wish people actually cared, it is as if i am invisible, i don't know, i feel depressed for no reason at all what so ever. my own best friend only ask me if i am okay if she sees i post something like "no one even ask if i am okay?". i don't see a point in being alive, but like i would do anything? i have gone there before and so how hurt my family was. my siblings ignore me and expect me to be like them. i feel like the burden of the family. my siblings have great jobs, they finished school, they aren't quiet. where as i am full of mistakes, i dropped out of school due to the work being to easy for me. i don't want to work with food but all i keep hearing is "working with food is usually someones first job". i have a psychologist and i like her helping but talking verbally isn't my thing when it comes to my problems. i feel as if i am always someones last choice, people say that isn't true but i know it is because i have seen that i am with my own eyes. i get so irritated easily. i just don't know what to do anymore?

[smallwolf]

Hi. Welcome to beyond blue.

I am not a trained professional. I am just like you - just another user on the forum that suffers from anxiety and depression. Firstly well done for posting here. Also seeing a psychologist.

You indicated a problem with people not caring. Is it possible that is what your mind is telling you. It works that way for me.

When your best friend does ask if you are OK, how do you respond? Is it a text conversation or verbal? Sounds like chat from your message. So the cannot read queues from your appearance or voice etc. Do your friends (and family) know about your PTSD and depression etc?

Do you work with food? Do you like that? Or not? I was a little confused by that part of your post. Sorry. And it does suck if you constantly compare yourself others, or your siblings.

I won't ask you any questions about your psychologist, but you said "but talking verbally isn't my thing when it comes to my problems". I have some questions for you (below). Many of which you would be familiar with?

Do you know what your triggers are?
Do you have any distraction and coping mechanisms?
Are you sleeping OK? Good sleep hygiene can help reduce anxiety/depression?

On the forums you will find other threads to help you manage your anxiety including...

Grounding yourself, What is it and how do you? - Beyondblue
Relaxation exercises - Beyondblue

Do a google search to find the above pages. As you are probably aware, knowing what your triggers help you manage it. My psychologist has also given me other tools, suggested apps to install my phone (only 2) and a 1 book to read. If you have any questions or want to chat, please let me know.

Tim

[Doolhof]

Hi TJR,

Welcome to the community here. I have a few different mental health issues and general health issues as well. I know what will help me feel better, the problem is that when I am feeling low, I find it really difficult to find the strength and motivation to do what I know will improve my life!

Comparison is not helpful to me. I can never be someone else. I can work on being the best person I can be at any point of time.

When I am struggling with my depression, some times the best thing I can do is to accept that I am really depressed and right at that moment I might not be able to achieve much at all. When I am feeling a little better, than I can work on doing something that will help me feel better about life.

Sometimes doing something is better than doing nothing. Obtaining a job in the food industry with help you connect with fellow workers, will provide you with a sense of achievement, may be a stepping stone to reaching further up the business ladder, assist you to become job ready for a different position else where, provide you with work ethics and will look good on a resume!

Expecting others to understand how we feel when they have no personal experience of mental health issues is difficult. Not everyone understands mental health if they have not experienced it themselves.

Cheers to you from Dools