Having off day today - advice and suggestions are welcome!

[PrettyKitty85]

Hey Everyone,
I have been battling depression for approximately 6 months and have been taking medications around the same time. I have to admit I am handling things OK but there are some days where I wish I didn't get out of bed and just feel like utter crap. Today was one of those days, unfortunately one of the common side effects of my anti-depressants is nausea and dizzy spells and I spent most of the morning sitting down on the kitchen floor trying to stop the room from spinning. I had to call in sick at work today which is another downer because it's a new job who is aware of  my condition but it's a place I really love going to but when I have these days, it's really hard to deal with people in general and I just feel like a complete burden to everyone around me. I am happily married and have been for 4 years and my husband is amazing supportive man, however there are some days where I wish he could come home to a normal happy wife instead of having to dry my tears and nurse me back to bed.

Like most people suffering from a mental illness, I am taking anti-depressants, going to a counselling session once a week which is helping but I often wish I could just go back to being happy without the medication. My parents are worried about me and have suggested for me to stop the medication and see if it makes me any better but I don't think that's going to help me one bit. Does anyone have any moments where you wish you could go back to being normal without the medication? I do all the time. I understand depression is something that takes a while to overcome but I am really just over taking the tablets. I have tried getting into fitness and healthy eating but when I have bad days, I comfort eat like you wouldn't believe. I am overweight for my age and height and as a 28 year old woman who is constantly surrounded by girls who are tiny and are just perfect in every way, I feel so inferior and not confident at all.

One of the things that is on my mind at the moment is I have a friend's wedding to attend this weekend where it's going to involve a lot of old friends we don't really associate with anymore because one of them decided to pick on me for no reason and made me feel like the size of a thumb tack and unfortunately for her, I don't take too nicely when people make me feel that way. So I snapped at her at a friend's wedding a few years back and have now caused the circle of friends to completely exclude us (including my husband who they were friends with first) just over that one incident. I am really nervous about going to this wedding and seeing that girl and I don't know how I am cope with things. I get nervous whenever I see that group of friends and I am really worried about how I am going to feel when I have to be in the vicinity as these people that make me feel so horrible. If anyone has any suggestions on how to cope with it, please let me know. I am all ears!!

[vip]

Hi Pretty Kitty are you born in June by any chance ? You sound like a carbon copy of me just briefly i will tell you about myself I am 39 i have suffered with depression since 17 so on medication all that time. I recently came off it under gp and psych supervision yes my parents husband worried with me being on it i put on 26 kilos which i have recently lost 10 due to joining a gym and i ate uncontrollably lost heaps of friends due to a suicide attempt 3 yrs ago so have had to make a few new ones. Yes the skinny pretty girls around me made me feel like this too so heaps in common with you and i am married with 1 little boy who is 7. I feel your nerves with that wedding i would just attend avoid her and if you have to leave early i hate uncomfortable situiations like this one too. Look you will get better in time with deprssion its taken me ages but even without the medication i have to work really hard at it your not alone we all have the same feelings on this forum hopefully you get some more replies to your post take care x