Got high on test WHAT DO I DO

[Tane]

Hi guys Im 25 /M

i have been struggling the last 6-7 months, I constantly feel like I’m being judged by everyone, constantly that no one needs me in this world I really need help and not sure what to do, I have talked to my partner about it but I think she’s in denial, I will randomly cry when certain things happen, like when there is love shown on a tv, song, movie I constantly feel like I have never been loved which is a strange feeling cause I know there’s someone that loves me but it still feels as if there is none in my life, and now im feeling like I’m getting thrown around in my own brain, I try to shake it and fight it but it stays in my head. It gets so frustrating you just want it to end, you want to find peace but it’s out of control. And it’s so hard to talk to people about it, cause no matter how much you explain it, all I end up getting is things will get better. Well 7 months on still nothings getting better, I’m falling into a slump, and I just need it to stop, I just want it to stop 😔

[smallwolf]

Tane,

Hi. Welcome to beyond blue.

What test did you score high on? Was it the K10 test? If so, there would have been a recommendation at the end of what steps/actions to take. But I can come back to that later if needed.

First of all, know that you are not alone in this space. There are plenty of user that (have been or) are in your position, and understand what it is like, who will support you at this time. Sometimes, friends who do have the lived experience might not know how to respond, or tell you things will get better. This might be the case for some people and not others. So perhaps your friends fall into this category. It does not make them bad people.

There are a few topics in your message. Crying during a song, or tv show, movie by itself is OK. There are some song that I have listened to that are raw, emotional and will bring tears to my eyes. But when you say you believe that you don not feel loved, that is something different, because as you said, you have a partner.

As for yourself, you can either try to fix the problems yourself, or reach out to get help, including professional help. There are also threads on the forum about grounding and mindfulness you could look at as well. The posts in these threads might help you with getting back to the present moment from the negative thoughts running around in your mind.

And talking with your GP is a good starting point. They will (or should) have an understanding about mental illnesses and be able to point you in the right direction. For what it is worth, this is the road I chose to take and I now visit a psychologist regularly because I wanted it to stop also. And there is no shame in this either.

Tim

[therising]

Hi Tane

Sorry to hear you are going through such an incredibly tough time. I'm glad you have come here to find people who can relate to how you're feeling. In depression, it's so important to find such people as they can play an important part in how we come to relate to our self (in more positive ways).

As usual, Tim has given some great advice, especially when it comes to reaching out for help. By the way, 'Things will get better (on their own)' is a fairly typical response from folk who don't understand the mindset of depression. Depression requires management in a variety of ways and this 'Things will get better' comment offers no form of constructive management whatsoever, which is definitely frustrating.

Understanding how depression works can help give us greater insight (so we're not so hard on our self). Depression impacts people on many levels: Mentally, the thoughts and chemistry which feed each other up there in our head can tend to feel like a seemingly never ending merry-go-round, until resolution and balance is found. The physical manifestations of depression can appear in a number of ways (with fatigue or lethargy included). Energetically, or some may say spiritually, our connections to life can definitely feel lacking. The mind/body/energy experience can be an amazing and inspiring triad when working in balance but when out of balance it can feel like a truly torturous experience. By the way, if you research a little on the chemicals dopamine and serotonin you'll be able to relate to some degree to the chemistry aspect of depression.

As Tim mentioned, consider a visit to a trusted GP in order to get the ball rolling when it comes to constructive management. Management and self-understanding/education is key in managing our states of being.

Take care Tane

[Tane]

Hey guys I went and talked to my local gp about what has been happening and my thoughts and he prescribed antidepressant medication, I have been taking it for 2 days and I have Been feeling like I’m slightly tripping out. I have a hightened sense of feel so objects that feel amazing I want to touch all the time and feel kinda like I’m floating, im also experiencing a higher sex drive then normal it’s like I have just taken erectile dysfunction medication. Is this normal

[therising]

Hi Tane

So glad you went and spoke to your GP. Wondering if he mentioned the idea of a duel approach (the meds as well as professional guidance, to help get to the bottom of what's troubling you).

As far as the anti-depressants go, if any unwanted sensations continue it's worth going back and speaking to your GP about tweaking the dose/chemistry a little. He might have mentioned to you the idea of an adjustment period regarding the meds you're on; might take a little while for you to adjust to your current dose. Getting the chemical balance right can be a bit of a trial and error thing sometimes. As mentioned previously, it's pretty amazing how much things are tied in together (that mental, physical and energy thing). Our chemistry can interact with us on so many levels.

I hope things settle down for you.