dear Jet, thanks for joining the site.
I understand the pressure that this now puts on you, as well as your husband and son.
It seems as though your son has a close connection to your husband, and by saying this doesn't take away your connection with him, but with all that is going on it is now taking it's toll on the three of you.
Can I ask where do you live, in a major town or a small community, as there maybe different options on what to do.
When the female of the house has to work fulltime, then she much more to carry as well as working, because your house hold chores never stop, such as cooking, cleaning and all that is associated with having a family, but if you are finding this very difficult, then it only adds to your depression.
I'm not sure how your husband copes being at home and not being the main bread winner, but that's up to you whether you want to reply to this, and remember you are not under any pressure being on this site, you say what suits you, but you will never be criticised on this site.
When you get home the relief of working has stopped, but this is when you break down, and by the way it's not your fault that situations like yours happen, so please don't feel guilty, although I know that you are.
A couple of things to do and that is to firstly have an appointment with your GP, because he/she maybe able to relieve this pressure with some medication, and remember you can't get over this by yourself, and even if your husband does find another job, then this won't stop your anxiety, because it has already begun, and that's why you need to see your doctor, because you will always worry about him losing the job again.
I hope that you can reply back to us, and I also hope that Danny also opens up to us as well. L Geoff. x
