hello Dhkm, I have to say how deeply sorry I feel for you after these unfortunate events, especially for your mum and the baby you had to terminate, and please I haven't forgotten about your Pop, and although I'm not qualified to say I still wonder whether you have been diagnosed with suffering from PND, but your doctor will have to make this decision.
I've also suffered from this myself as my wife had it after our second son and know how deep the hole is, however neither of us received any counselling, we were too young, even though my Dad was a GP, but we lived a couple of hours away from him, but now in hindsight I only wish we did, because it may have prevented me from falling down in a big way later on in life.
Even though your medication has been in increased, doesn't necessarily mean that it's going to help you overcome this terrible feeling, and I say this because people need to have medication but also counselling to help get them through, so maybe you could ask your doctor to see a psychologist, and please ask them about the mental health plan, which entitles you to 10 free visits.
I do feel for where you are at the moment and I also hope that you can get back to us so we can keep on having a chat. Geoff.
