Hello Braxiatel, and thanks for posting this comment.
When your spouse/partner has been supportive, you feel a small relief, but as soon as they don't give you the small attention, then problems in your mind start to begin and negative thoughts start happening, that's not your fault so please don't criticise yourself.
To be the person who jokes and makes everyone have a laugh, and then pretends to be happy, and your partner isn't there or they may start asking you 'what's wrong', how do you answer them and how can you get the routine to stay the same, unfortunately, it doesn't, your routine has been broken and creates trouble.
Can I ask you if the doctor has diagnosed you as it would be interesting to know.
I know how you are feeling because that always happened to me.
Take care.
Geoff.
