Down in the Dumps.. not too bad but it like to vent..

[RoseToez]

I just recently went through a break up.. I feel like a fool for letting someone sponge off me and my 2 kids.. Controlling me into how he wanted things to be.. dealing pot from my house and even cooking DMT in my kitchen (without my kids being around). He head butted me during an argument.. I had cops remove him and put an intervention order on him.. now I'm left battling a pot habbit all over again.. haven't smoked since he left.. just trying to kick tobacco now. I just feel like an idiot for getting involved so much when my kids should be the most important thing in my life. My kids are 3 years and the other is 20 months. I guess now I know what's most important. I just feel stupid for letting it happen. The sad thing is I feel like everyone is sick of me, I'm in atleast $2000 debt with after pay and my parents... I spend too much on just crap. I've abused Afterpay and can't see myself even buying enough food shopping for the next 3 week's. I have no friends because I abused that during a break down I had 7 years ago. I'm Bipola type 2.. meds are helping the addictive situation.. I just want someone to vent to. I dont want to be in therapy. I cant be bothered. I dont miss him at all I'm just embarrassed at myself.

[Doolhof]

Hi Rose Toez,

Welcome to the community here on the forum. If you would like to just vent and share how you are feeling, that is okay. I do that here too at times!

There have been situations in my life too where I have been with a person because in the beginning it has felt like the right thing, then later I have realised it was not so great after all.

It sounds like you know what has not worked in your life, now you have the opportunity to find things that do work.

We all make mistakes and we can learn from them.

Maybe you could write up a list of what you would like to achieve in the next week, month or year.

Maybe a budget might help you with your spending and providing food for the family.

Your are welcome to take my comments on board or ignore them altogether. Either way, please feel free to share here. These are just some thoughts I have shared with you.

Cheers for now from Dools

[RoseToez]

Thank you Dools, I will take that on board