Depression.

[Original_nickname]

I don't know how to start one of these so i will just get into it.

I enjoy barely anything anymore and I am constantly isolating myself. I can eat a lot like a lot for one week and then go without food for three days with little water. It's hard to sleep taking around 2 hours to fall asleep. I self harm sometimes and have daily thoughts on suicide. I get angry very easily  My Stepfather used to pick me up by the ear and chuck me into my room, he even used to hit my head and tell me to toughen up a lot. I don't usually talk about this anymore because the last time I did (which was to my parents) they said "everyone is feeling the same" and walked away. I also believe i have ADD, I get distracted easily, find it really hard to do school work and I am always loosing things only 5 minutes after putting them away somewhere.

I also don't know what to say at the end so i will just say, bye and thank you for your time.

[Deckt]

Hey there

I hear that you don't feel like you have support from your family. Have you spoken to any of the helpline, like Lifeline? I also get the impression that you are young... there's also a Kids Helpline that is for kids, teens and young adults (up to 25, I believe). There's also live web chats available. Do you have a good GP? They can be really helpful too, with getting you some help.

Sometimes a friendly ear makes a world of difference. Please stick around, and let us know how you're doing. I don't know you, but I can guarantee that you're a worthwhile person with something good to offer.

Stay strong. Dark times do pass.

[Original_nickname]

Hi Deckt,

Thank you so much for replying, Unfortunately, I am not really feeling any different, maybe a bit more tired. And I am eating barely anything. But, I am a bit excited to see a reply! And no, I have not spoken to a helpline yet, but I hope to soon. I guess I just have to build up the courage first. I don't know if I have a good GP either.

In case you were wondering my age is 12. Almost 13 actually, don't know why I added that in but I did.

Thanks again.

[Deckt]

Hey Original Nickname.

Thanks for getting back to me. I get that calling and talking to a stranger on the phone can be rather daunting. Particularly if your experience of life so far hasn't given you a great deal of trust in adults. You can always check out the live chats with counselors through kids helpline. I've used them (not through kids helpline.... I'm a little old) and I found that they were helpful. It's also good if you're in a position where you don't have your own space, and don't want to be overheard. But, and I'm sorry if this sounds a little patronising, please be careful who you talk to online. Not just for safety reasons, but a lot of adults are good at sounding sensible, while not really knowing what they are on about. The chat services for KH have trained staff, who are experienced in young adult issues.

Depression is a really tricky condition. In my experience, sometimes some simple things can help. It's amazing how much better the world looks after a good night's sleep. It's easier to sleep if you've eaten something. It's easier to both sleep and eat if you take a walk, or do something else physical. I know that for me, depression robs my of my desire to do anything, particularly something that's good for me. Do it anyway. It does help.

Stay in touch, ON.

[Original_nickname]

Hey, I'm still here. Don't know what to do. I had everything planned out to do it, I decided not to, not yet. I've been trying really hard to get better but nothing has worked yet. I haven't called a helpline yet, but I may just have to soon. Thanks

[Guest_4643]

Hi Original nickname, welcome to the forums.

I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling. Please know that we all care on the forums, and that there is help out there for you, professionally.

Please eat and drink water, and don't harm yourself. Believe me I struggle with suicidal thoughts, poor appetite, sleep, etc. too so I understand how difficult it is. Is there anything that you can do to distract yourself or things that make you happy, someone to talk to? You're welcome here 24/7 as you know, and it's a supportive, friendly, caring, safe place.

I hope you can find some support here and professionally and take care of yourself, it makes me sad that you're dealing with all of that. Please be safe. I'm worried for you.

Tayla

[Deckt]

Hey Original nickname!

I'm glad you're with us. Please, please. Make that call. Particularly if you have gotten to the planning stage. I PROMISE you that this will get better. Please do not take a permanent solution to what is definitely a temporary problem.

I'll be checking in with you, ok?

[Original_nickname]

Okay, thanks, both of you.

[Black_Kat]

I agree, make that call. As much as I was panicking about it, I did just a little while ago. If it is any comfort of sorts. I have been trying to get better since I was a teenager, I am now 35. In other words you are not alone. Definitely not alone, even though it may feel like it.

Not sure how to sign off.

[Original_nickname]

I'm still here. Trying my best