Depression I need people around me

[Chris D]

This is my first time back to BB in quite a few yrs. I am currently at my lowest point in many years, all I'm seeking is people to support me. Hope someone can chat to me.

[Chris D]

Things may not be ideal for you but I urge you to keep fighting to get the right ppl around you.
It may not seem like it now but things will get better for you, i believe in you & know you can get the right help for yourself.
Don't give up, keep fighting.
You have every right to receive help& to have the ppl around you.
You are helping me in staying connected to ppl as I have said in the past I don't have many close friends/ppl I can talk to about things. I would like to say thank you to you for your replies & knowing you understand.

Thank you

[Guest_4643]

Hey Chris, thank you as always for the kind words. That means so much to me. Thank you for being there for me and understanding me also, that means a lot aswell. I'm always here for you. I'm so glad I can help you, and hopefully others here too.

I'm doing my best trying to meet people, but I'm very housebound - I only go out if I have appointments, to do errands with my parents or go for walks daily. I don't drive (I have my Learners but never driven) and I'm 21, I'm a failure. Don't have a job, never have. People probably judge me reading this stuff, I hope not.

I live in a town in the country (not out in the middle of nowhere, like it's still somewhat suburban but yeah), where everyone knows everyone. I try to say hello to people on my walks and I get glared at and ignored. I went to Headspace and had a very traumatic experience at the centre. I've tried to join groups because I'd like to learn how to do stuff (for example, sewing) but I'm always rejected, even before COVID, I have no idea why. It's discrimination. This was before COVID also.

So I'm basically just stuck at home. I've always struggled making friends.

[Chris D]

Hi Tayla,
I really hope tomorrow goes well for you. Whatever happens I just want you to know that myself & others are here for you.
I do understand how you feel about been out of school & in your early 20's without a job. I went 7 yrs without a permanent job after leaving school.
Well done doing your daily walks, exercise is good for you in every away particularly for ppl with depression. How long of a walk do go for? I go for the occasional jog/walk & sometimes a bush walk.
I would encourage you to start driving on your L's if possible & when your comfortable. It will provide you with some independence.
I really do understand how you feel, I get it. Your circumstances remind me of my life & I was in almost exact circumstances to you are right now.
Things will turn around it may not be instant but I have no doubt your life will get better.
I urge you to keep trying to join different groups & interact with ppl. It must be so hard for you to try to make friends, keep trying.
I believe in you Tayla.
Thank you for your kind words of support it means a lot I have no doubt your helping others on BB.

Take care

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Chris. I'll keep you updated on my thread after the appointment later.

Yes it is very hard. I go for about 30 min walks, so around most of the lake where I live.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Chris, I've been thinking of you and just wanted to see how you're going. I hope you're ok. Take care.

[Chris D]

Hey Tayla,

As I write this response I'm feeling pretty low.
In days past it has been a roller coaster ride for me in terms of thoughts & feelings.
I don't have much inner drive to keep going it has slowly been dwindling down.

Take care
Chris

[Guest_4643]

Hi Chris.

I'm really sorry to hear that, I hope you're alright. I've been struggling myself so I understand.

I'm here for you, always. Feel free to respond when you're ready. Take care also.

[Chris D]

Hey Tayla,

Still extremely low with no motivation at all.

My wife planned a camping trip for a few days next wk. She planned for me but I can't go due to work commitments. She is still going camping with her family though. Do u think it's right that she should still be going even though she planned it for me she knows how depressed & anxious I have been & knows that I don't have any direct links to a psychiatrist & psychologist?
I would have thought staying home with your husband & supporting him would have made her think that she needs to stay & not go camping. From next Mon-Wed I will have no one to talk too no one to be home when I finish work as my wife will be away camping.
Feeling really abandoned now. I'd rather go somewhere & never come back.
I don't care what happens to me anymore

[Guest_4643]

Hey Chris.

I'm sorry you're feeling unmotivated, and your wife is still going with her family. I would agree, I personally don't like camping but I would cancel it and support you.

I'm here for you. And please stay safe.

[Chris D]

I feel so empty & numb right now.
I guess I don't mean much to my wife if she's still going camping & won't stay to support me. The one person I thought I could count on to be there through the ups & downs & she goes camping when I'm at my most vulnerable.