Could do with some advice, doing it tough

[Andy999]

Hey i’ll try Keep this short, Im a 23 year old male play a lot of sport, have a big social life and in general have a pretty good life, I started suffering anxiety 5-6 years ago (triggered from an ecstasy pill, lots of ups and downs but eventually improved heaps over the last 2 years through learning how to manage it, basically my life was good again,
I’ve recently relapsed but into a way more depressive state, I’m struggling more then ever before and with my gp I’ve decided to start medication, it seems like my last hope. Any way I thought I’d write down some of my feelings and worries to see if anyone out there had some advice on how to go about this and yeh any tips or even anyone who can relate to me, thanks
feelings-


Like there is a constant dark cloud over my head, Sometimes i can break out of it when I’m keeping busy or with friends but not a lot

-Things become overwhelming, just everything around me freaks me out

-It can feel like I’m in some sort of dream state, maybe like a derealization
-Things just become less enjoyable, I’m not concerned with the fun things I once was eg (girls and sports and hanging out with mates)
-I feel confused
-Sometimes it just feels like I’m going crazy, like I’m about to breakdown and just lose my mind
-Sometimes can just feel empty and emotionless
-It can sometimes feel like I’m dying almost, just like nothing matters anymore and like the old (happy/normal) me is gone, that life is over, something like that it’s hard to describe that feeling
-I can feel like I’m I stuck in some sort of drug trip, just like a big loop
-Lots of flashbacks of previous good and bad times

thoughts/worries-


-I keep worrying that I’m stuck like this and it won’t get better
-I worry that I won’t be able to handle this anymore and will get to the point that I’m suicidal
-I worry that this isn’t just anxiety and depression and that possibly something else is causing it and that I’m not getting treated properly
-I worry medication might loop me out and send me crazy
-I’m concerned and stressing about my mental health nearly 100% of the day rather then filling my mind with thoughts on other normal day to day stuff
-Sometimes I’m able to think about other normal stuff but it always comes back

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

You are in quite a spot eh. I've experienced most of what you describe.

We cannot of course diagnose or evaluate a medical condition, we have MI ourselves but I can indicate what I did.

Certainly different type of medications suit different people. I took 12 types of meds before the right one fitted in like a glove!

To obtain the right dosage is really important and your GP contact is essential. I'd return to him/her again. Take a copy of your post with you.

Some symptoms you describe I've felt as part of my maturity changes- like not socializing much as I did. You are entering the age when nightclubs etc are not as appealing, even immature friends can be irritating which is not meds related or illness related either.

Stress is your enemy. Do try to introduce some relaxation techniques into your life.

Use google to find these threads-

Beyondblue topic worry worry worry

Beyondblue topic anxiety, how I eliminated it

Beyondblue topic he helped me for 25 years- Maharaji

Beyondblue topic medication is a whirlpool

I hope that helps. repost anytime.

TonyWK

[blondguy]

Hello Andy999

Good on you for having the courage to post with us on the forums

I'd like to echo TonyWK's thoughts especially where contact with a GP is concerned. The anxiety you are feeling may be a result of many reasons Andy. We all need a place to start finding some peace from these feelings and a proactive GP to help us find our way

Just as per my own experience with anxiety issues....you seem to have a lot on your plate at this time

Do you have a GP that you can confide in? (just asking if thats okay)

my kind thoughts

Paul