Croix Parler

[Croix]

I'd like to use this pace for miscellaneous matters that don't fit elsewhere

Thanks

Croix

[mmMekitty]

Hello Croix & everyone,

When certain foods are in short supply or not in season, or really getting too expensive, I seem to want them all the more. Or when the power has gone out (rarely), I am instantly asking what can I eat, (to cook, ( mean), & think there is nothing, even though I am not going to starve, & having a cold meal is very possible....

I think this sort of thinking also occurs when adopting a diet which disallows certain foods - suddenly we feel deprived & want them all the more.

But then again, having decided I want multigrain bread sandwiches, I am disappointed, even annoyed, when the sandwhices on offer are all white or wholemeal bread, or even the fancier breads like Turkish or Brioche  ...

Just some thoughts.

All the best, Moonstruck!

Hugzies

mmMekitty

[Moonstruck]

dear Croix. ...I shall have to check out the price of cucumbers these days...with all fresh stuff going sky high in the supermarkets.....You are kidding aren't you?  I mean about the high-tea cake stand with the crustless sandwiches and delicacies?  It sounds quite possible you did have that in your childhood....but then again, one never knows with you.   Guess what?   Despite all the incredibly heavy "preparations" I think, just think, that perhaps, maybe, just a tiny bit, I maybe beginning to "enjoy myself"......If I don't crack under the strain.....I hope that first thought upon waking in the morning.....you know, those first 2 seconds after opening one's eyes, my thought "What have I done? Why the hell did I agree to do this, all this preparation I have to do...am I mad?".....it only lasts for about 2 seconds and will let you know when the thought stops completely......that will be a good sign won't it?.........x

[Croix]

Dear Moon -plus all looking over her shoulder~

Those 2 seconds are an acknowledgment that you do have a task that requires determination, skill, talent and experience, but it is only 2 seconds becuse you have all those qualities and will sail through -if yo u are looking for a good sign then the fact you are starting to enjoy yourself is proof.

Another is the fact you would not have received the invitation if your qualities were not obvious to all.

I"m afraid I was telling the truth, I sort of had two lives as a kid, the pleasant informal one in Wales wiht my Welsh grandparents, having fun, enjoying the sea, relishing the food and my own little oil lamp at night.

The other was when I was wiht my parents who were formal, held a 'place' in society and ecclesiastical circles and believed small boys should be seen and not heard. I guess you have to remember England was a very different place than now. The war was just over and 'class' still influenced most behaviour.

Now that I think about it -three lives, The last being the English public school system. My only break from that was when I lived in Paris for a little while

You will amaze and entertain with your bowling and finish exhausted and satisfied.

Croix

[Moonstruck]

Oh Croix.....I had a feeling the formal side of your childhood with the High Tea cucumber sandwiches just could be true....the thought of the "Public school" system always makes me shudder with all the brutality that went on "back then".  from what I have read and seen in movies is ghastly.  Isn't it funny that in Australia the posh, expensive elite schools are called Private Schools....while our Govt run State Schools are known as "public"?   What an interesting life you have had.....to end up here, corresponding with all our motley  crew of disjointed, confused and terrified folks on Forum....  (don't tell anyone, but I'm already amazing and entertaining and that's just while practising).  another thing I was interested in...was seeing if the awful pain that has dominated my poor old body lately and hard to keep under control , just maybe a lot "in the mind" and whether this new activity would affect, whether for good or bad..So far....I find myself not obsessing about it or noticing and worrying about it nearly as much as when I had nothing much to do.    I am not saying it has "healed".  that will never happen.  It is still there but not nearly as severe....or perhaps my mind is not 100% on it just now.....so it seems to just lurk in the background while other things and human interaction take over all my attention.  

Nice talking to you.....as usual.   Moon S

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

I was a 'day boy' and as such was insulated from most of the misbehavior suffered (and mostly caused) by the boarders.

I'm very glad you have started  to practice for the tournament, apart from the fact that sphere of activity is most worth-while in it's own right I guess you may be finding it does help alleviate to some extent physical problems, anxieties and grief.

"Schools should be the most beautiful place in every town and village-so beautiful that the punishment for undutiful children should be barred from going to school the following day."

😣

Croix

[mmMekitty]

Croix, when I was young, it seemed to me that most kids thought being sent home from school or suspended was a 'holiday'. Either they weren't being truthful or their parents didn't care ... that was the impression I had about those kids who would actively try to get themselves kicked out of the class or school even for a day, seemingly disappointed if they weren't actually suspended. It was seen as something to be proud of & to be boasted about amongst those kids & their friends.Same goes for skipping (wagging) school.

Thinking back, I think they were putting on a brave front about it, because when my step-sis was sent out, suspended & also caught wagging, she did get into trouble at home. Physical punishment was common. She would act as if it didn't matter nor hurt at all. I don't believe that anymore.

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Hi Moonstruck - thinking of you, wishing you great success.

Hugzies

mmMekitty

[Croix]

Dear MK~

There's unfortunately a lot of truth in what you say. The quotes was "Schools should be ..." but unfortunately for the most part they are not. Between dry and boring subjects (I had Latin and Greek) and ill behaved children schools were not a place I enjoyed and on those times when I was ill and did not go I was pleased.

I surprisingly enough had one master who made maths come alive - I actually looked forward to his classes. Sadly he was the exception, mind you he did throw the chalk duster at pupils not paying attention, a source of amusement then, but not on nowadays.

I'm afraid many kids do have a tendency to boast and pretend to be bad, it is a pity as they perceive praise form their peers for naughtiness and may go further as a result.

I do not recommend English Public Schools or the Australian Private one I went to, all of which cost my parents a packet, but do recommend the French State School, free and a different world.

Croix

[Moonstruck]

Hi Croix....just checking in to say I am still alive and plugging away.  I mentioned in my own thread that its easier to be inexperienced and a newcomer to any commitment or activity...then not so much is expected of you....when you have a history and reputation at being so good at it....the higher you are, the further you fall...sort of thing? People seem to expect so much of me....they tell me how brilliant I will be and I think "How the hell do you know?  I wish I was so certain".  I am so very tired, I know I will be good but others around me don't have much experience and I am getting anxious about them,....rather than about me!   On my days/nights off, all I want to do is "rest"......is this OK?   love Moon S

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

I think everyone worth their salt gets nervous before a tournament or a season. In fact if one was blasé then one's performance would probably not be as good, and people would sense a lack of enthusiasm -something you have in spades. So -as one famous fictional female said -  " screw your courage to the sticking-place and we'll not fail."

Yes it is true you have a certain high standard looking over your shoulder from the past, however you have experience, accomplishment, enjoyment, talent and many years of practice looking over the other one.

Have faith in yourself. I'm not even going to wish you luck - you don't need it.

Yes you may indeed get tired, however that's no bad thing, it's keep you rested for the next innings. Just plan to be tired and have an easy meal pre-prepared.

Croix, who wishes he was there to to you wow them all.

[Moonstruck]

Thanks for that Croix.  .I wish you were there too....I think you'd enjoy it!  Over the years I've been asked "Don't you get nervous?"..and its rather hard to explain....I heard Judi Dench explain in much the same way I always do...."the nerves and anxiety just somehow "turn into adrenalin"...then you just fly! "  I have no idea what those folk do whose "nerves" don't turn into adrenalin...and I don't want to find out!