Work, anxiety… wanting advice please

[Nervybella]

Hi all

I feel like every time I post here it’s a work related issue for me. I’m starting to see a pattern…

anyway, I started a new job around one month ago now. It’s in a brand new field so all new to me. The company is amazing, it’s a great culture with great people.. the only thing is I don’t know if the role itself is right for me

I’m only touching on the tip of the iceberg with the role as I’m still new but already I feel out of my depth. I can see myself getting burnt out in the future as the job requires some big hours and a lot of work!
I don’t know what to do as I feel like this is the perfect organisation and culture for me to work in, but the role itself perhaps isn’t

I come home and my brain can’t switch off, I’m doubting myself and have lost my appetite due to the anxiety

I’d love some advice as I’m just feeling very confused and my anxiety has been bad lately with thoughts running wild!

best, Bella

[Nervybella]

Hey Pumpkinella!

work for me… I’m still very anxious but my thought pattern has changed. I’ve realised it’s just not the job for me. I have thought about it a lot and I know what I do want but it’s a matter of making it happen that’s causing me stress now.

Im finding it hard to get motivated now and fear I’m kind of checking out in a way…

I don’t know what or how to approach this with my manager

so glad you found another great job! It’s nice to hear someone coming out the other side in a positive way 🙂

best

bella

[Pumpkinella]

Good morning Nervybella,

I'm glad you have come to a realisation. It can be really difficult persevering at a place under stress and trying to figure out how you feel! I think you gave it a really good go and you should definitely pat yourself on the back for that.

I'm guessing you are stressed about handing in your resignation? It's really hard I know. Are you worried about his/her reaction?

May I ask is this a new line of work you are trying out or is it something you have been doing for a while and just switching jobs?

Hope you have a wonderful day.

Pumps

[Nervybella]

Hi Pumps

I haven’t/am not up to handing in my resignation yet as I don’t have another job to go to.
this was a totally new career path/area for me as I just finished studying. I’ve realised I want a broader scope role in that area rather than the niche I’m I’m currently.

I feel sick and stuck about what to do as I’m terrified this is going to impact my mental health if I stay too long on a job I don’t like

[Pumpkinella]

Hey Nervybella,

Ah I see, yes that's really hard. I am wondering if its easier to get a job in the area you used to work in - if you are really familiar with it and therefore would be less anxious - while you look for another job in your new area? Gives you a bit more breathing room? Like just a job that doesn't have a great amount of responsibility that's relatively easy to get.

I was in administration, I trained up in mental health but I went back to admin again because I was in the exact situation you find yourself in. Then I looked for a job while doing a real basic admin role.

Its hard because changing jobs - even to a role we have had before - can still be stressful so you'll have to weigh up whether its less stress doing that or not...

I was watching an interesting video lately and it was going through ways of handing life stressors and decision making. It said to write down every single way of dealing with the issue - even ones that are not realistic - literally anything you can think of, and then narrow it down to what looks like would work best for you. It looked like a good motivating practice. Not sure if it might be useful here...?

Hope ur okay this afternoon

Pumps

[Nervybella]

Hi Pumps

that sounds like an interesting video! Not a bad idea, I might try it.

I could potentially go back to my old type of job which was reception/admin but I really hated being customer facing. That’s what I’m trying to get away from. I’m also wary how that might look on my resume and impact me moving forward.

I know at some stage I’ll have to talk to my manager I just don’t know how. Plus being working from home adds another layer of complexity I feel.

are you more settled in your role now?

[Pumpkinella]

Hey Nervybella,

Yeah I'm definitely more settled now, getting extra training helped as well. I did a psych degree but it gave me no practical experience, so I did a certificate IV mental health which was all practical and it helped so much. I was so stressed about screwing up and upsetting a client because I didn't have any guidance on what to do. Literally what do I even say? haha. So while I went back to work in admin I did that extra study and that helped me get the job later - and as you say didn't look bad on my resume.

But you know what going back to what you formerly did need not look bad. You could just say that you wanted to ensure the next role was really suitable and it gave you the space to do that. Its actually a sign of maturity and signals to the prospective employer that you are being really considered in your approach to what job you choose.

When you say you know you'll have to talk to your manager, do you mean discuss how you are feeling in the role at the moment or do you mean eventually resign?

Totally get wanting to avoid customer facing - I avoided it like the plague - I was always lurking behind the scenes - like office admin.

[Nervybella]

Hi Pumps

sounds like you handled that whole situation really well! Nice one 🙂

I feel like I need to tell my manager how I’m feeling about not enjoying my work as he has started mentioning planning things out for the future etc and I just don’t think it’s right for me to stay quiet. Plus maybe having the conversation about resigning too? I don’t really know

[Pumpkinella]

Hey Nervybella,

Yeah I understand its a bit awkward. Their talking about the future and your sitting there thinking "if only you knew."

Just so you know its definitely okay to stay quiet though. You would not be doing anything wrong. Most (I would say nearly all) people have plans to resign well before handing their notice.

Its just the nature of being a manager. People leaving after realising the job isn't for them is a very common experience that managers are paid to handle.

I think if you want to do the right thing its just about when you do have new job lined up, you give your employer some notice. i.e. its not great to say "I'm leaving in three days" for instance.

Having said that, once I had such a bad breakdown I cried and told them I cant come back. And they were really understanding.

I think you did have a conversation with your employer at the beginning about how you felt in the role, is that right?

How are you coping with the day to day work at the moment?

[Nervybella]

Hey Pumps

thanks for the advice, that really helped me put it into perspective.. I’m always so afraid of doing “the wrong thing” that I can become consumed by it. But you’re right, people do this every day and as blunt as it sounds, we are all replaceable at work.

I did have a chat to my manager a while ago to say I was unsure about the role, so any movement on my end shouldn’t come as a complete shock I suppose.

day to day, it’s getting a little easier as I learn more but highlights it’s not the role for me as so many aspects are things I was trying to get away from.
I guess you just don’t know these things until you try them…

[Pumpkinella]

That's alright Nervybella I think we are quite similar because I too can become consumed by these things and put all this undue pressure on myself. Its funny what you said about being replaceable, that's something my auntie had to remind me of when I was in a similar predicament. No one is indispensable she said. Thank god for that.

Yeah that's what I was going to say - it probably will not be incredibly shocking especially since you are new to the role and as I said its quite common for people to leave after just starting as they realise its not right for them.

Yep I agree, we cant know unless we try. Its hard at the start I think because you have to try a few different things and see what works for you in your new vocation but its just a part of the process and its really good once you find it.

I'm glad its at least getting a little easier on a day to day basis though, would you say your anxiety/mental health is fairing okay? are you doing things to help you unwind and get some space? What are the lunch breaks like there?