What am I supposed to do.

[TheAnxiousMummy]

Everyday I wake up with an unfulfilled pit. It starts as soon as I wake up to the time I got to sleep. I worry about everything even coming down to what others think of me, even strangers, I feel like I need approval I do need approval to get on with my life. My ex partner and I split in January now we have shared care of our 4 year old son. His dad is so horrible to me and he doesn't see it. I get separation anxiety every time my baby goes to his dad's. All week everything gets me down. I'm completely depressed and I'm stuck in a rut, I overthink, I'm paranoid about everything, the things I worry about others think are stupid. I feel like I'm not aloud to show my feelings because I get judged. I don't know what to do but I can't keep living like this, I think I'm pushing those who are close to me away. I don't feel as though I can confine in anyone because I will be judged I've tried counselling it doesn't work. Every week gets worse. Every week I find myself more and more upset. The only think I ever look forward to is my baby coming home. I don't know what to do. Please help me. I just want to be Normal. I don't want to feel so chocked up anymore. I don't wanna feel like this.

[geoff]

hi TAMummy, can I ask you a question first of all, and only answer if you want to, but I seem to get the feeling that this maybe caused by the fear that your ex may take control over your son, where any friends will dismiss this as being nonsense.
In regard to your counselling, nothing will work out unless you feel comfortable with the therapist and this may not happen with the first one you see.
I would try another approach and contact Reachout as well as Beyond Blue, maybe you need someone less formal to talk to. Geoff.

[cakeboss]

Hi i know what you are going through .I to have been sharing my girls for the last 5 years of a marriage seperation.Its a huge adjustment seperation and belive me you may not feel it now but in the long run you will be so much better off without your ex .I had a nasty ex to for someone who left the marriage he would behave like a child with shared care .I am use to it all now and get along with him for the sake of the girls .I know ill never be his best friend but im sorry its the way it has to be .Seperation is never easy .Be kind to yourself and know that your child loves both of you and unfortuately i know it sucks sharing but you cant change that unless you go down the family law court .I found counciling very good they will help you with your fears for your child and the lonley heart when hes in the care of your ex i know what its like.In time you will be stronger to cope and having a good support network etc ither family gp councilers or anyone in a simlar situation to talk out your problems thats a good start .I take a day at a time just try to take day at a time and know that when you have care of your child you give your all 100%which you are awesome mum thats why we worry and its hard suffereing anxiety depression aswell .See a gp and see if there are any support groups for seperated parents .Im here if you need to chat and all the other loverly people on here .