I'm 27 and haven't been employed since I was 17. The period between 2011 and 2016 was a complete waste, I was depressed and too anxious to do anything with my life so I just stayed home. Then at the start of 2017 when I was finally going to get everything together my mum died and that knocked me back, then the start of this year was meant to be the year I get it all together, start uni (bachelor of IT), make friends there and all that. Covid hit and my uni was put online but a mixture of anxiety about studying and anxiety over now having it online made me end up skipping term 1. Term 2 starts soon but the anxiety and panic attacks are back again and I don't think I'm mentally capable of studying, so this will be yet another wasted year. I'm 27. Unemployed for almost a decade, basically unemployable at this point. Never got my driver's licence due to not being able to handle the stress of that and now it's even harder. I've missed out on so much in my life because of my anxiety, I've never even had a girlfriend of any kind. I'm stuck living with my grandparents since I can't afford to move out and get on with my life or even at least provide for them. I'm thinking of studying a certificate III in health services assistance in the hopes of being a hospital orderly or something like that now, I'm hoping I could at least be capable of doing something like that. Depending on how studying that goes I might try a diploma or even bachelor degree in nursing. I just know things would be so much easier if I had my mum here to talk to, she was like a friend to me and helped make things clearer for me.
I know I need to get help for both my anxiety and depression but I'm just too scared to turn to anyone for help and I don't know what to do. I'm sorry if I put this in the wrong spot, I'm not really in a good spot at the moment and I need to vent.
