Hello Horse_s, and a warm welcome to the site.
We are told by the doctors that we will benefit from exercising but for some of us this is impossible because we don't have the energy or desire to even walk to the letterbox, so I was in exactly the same position as you and trying to explain yourself to them it doesn't rationalise with them.
Being in a job when you feel like this all you want is to be left alone, wrap yourself up in a cocoon so no one will need to talk to you, but if they do all we hope is that the conversation is over in a couple of minutes.
At first, we can easily pretend that there's nothing wrong, but over time this becomes exhausting, but what we have to realise is that 'the coping mechanisms' we may have used before have been for other situations and not so much helpful for how you are now feeling.
Don't forget them because one day they will be helpful, but now ring around and try and find a psychiatrist that may have a cancellation or just moved to the area.
Hope to hear back from you.
Geoff.
