Trying to not put my problems on other people

[sarah662]

I think I’ve always had anxiety, I think it’s partly my personality and partly the disorder. Over the last few months I haven’t been coping well and my work has become very stressful. I’m having lots of time off with migraines.

Even though I am in my thirties, I only have my parents to turn to when I need to talk. I have friends and other family but I don’t want to bother them too.

I know my parents are growing tired of my problems.

I have a psychologist but not much has come from the appointments yet, it’s early days.

I come home from work and just cry. I am definitely not coping well at the moment.

If it wasn’t for the mortgage and bills, I would up and leave.

I should be grateful with everything I have but it’s hard to think like that at the moment.

I’m not even sure why I’m typing this or what I am even asking. I’m just so overwhelmed and my medication is only helping a little.

[Summer Rose]

Hi Sarah

Welcome to the bb forum.

I'm sorry that things aren't going very well for you at the moment. Anxiety can be really painful and it sounds like you've suffered a lot and had a gutful. It's okay to feel sad, frustrated and angry. Most people dealing with a chronic illness experience these emotions. You are not alone.

Maybe you're posting because you need some understanding. Maybe you need some kindness. Maybe you just want the universe to know you're hurting. Maybe you need all three.

The best way I can respond is with a ray of hope--it gets better.

With the right treatment most people with anxiety recover. You are on the right path. Give it some more time, do your best and be kind to yourself along the way. You will get there. Never give up, Sarah.

If you want to post some more, I am always happy to talk.

[Hang10]

Hi Sarah 662,

Anxiety is something that I also find hard to deal with at work. Try to find something to break it up. Maybe on your lunch break go for a walk,or have lunch at a park or somewhere quiet. To give you that break of that heavy anxiety that work is triggering in your emotions. Sometimes I break up the anxiety by minutes by telling myself to not look at the time for so long as anxiety likes to make us feel that everything has to be now. Try to starve it as much as possible to limit the storm. You are doing very well and should give yourself a pat on the back for your courage and strength. Reward yourself every couple of weeks. Maybe a little shopping or a fun hobby to say that I earned this and deserve this. I am strong and proud to be me.

[quirkywords]

Sarah,

I too welcome you to the forum. This is a caring and supportive place and you can see by Summer Rose and Hang10s (welcome to you too) caring replies.

Welldone for making your first post and reaching out. It can be hard to press that reply button but am so glad you did.

You say you are not coping well at the moment ,have you been coping better before, and has something happened or is it gradual or goes in cycles.

There are many threads here and articles on anxiety thatyou may fin helpful.

Feel free to post when you want to.

Quirky

[sarah662]

Thank you so much for your kind reply. It helped to write about what is going on.

Unfortunately my work situation got worse this week.

One person I worked with called me a toxic bitch and I truly cannot figure out what I did to her. Like many of us I know my faults better than anyone and if I thought I had said or done something to her I would admit it.

It’s hard for me to accept that maybe I didn’t do anything and it’s her problem.

I have been thinking about it constantly.

But on the plus side I made it thought the work week without getting migraine. Which is rare and I think the anxiety meds are starting to help.

Thank you for listening and for your helpful reply.

[sarah662]

Thank you for replying. I will definitely give that a try!

My psychologist was telling me that my anxiety may never go away but it’s not always a bad thing.

That perhaps some of the good aspects of our personalities are linked to anxiety. Like being hardworking, organised and loyal.

I just have to not let it get on top of me.

[sarah662]

Thank you so much for your kind reply. I wrote a long reply earlier but it didn’t post.

I think you’re right, I was looking for someone to listen. Someone to understand what anxiety feels like.

[Hang10]

Hi Sarah662

Glad to be able to offer some help that I hope will help you out. I think that for me anxiety is part of my DNA. My mother and my nan had it, my chances of fully overcome it may never happen. But I think anxiety hates it when you get stubborn. I had to find different ways in my working life to not allow it to dictate my life.

Keep trying to find little comforts when you feel the rain coming. These little comforts will lead to little victories and you grow and achieve more than you first thought.

I think anxiety as you have mention do make you more loyal caring and sensitive in a cruel and sometimes hard world it just need a bit of balance. Anxiety under control can be a gift in this world. A gift the world needs.

Take care. All my best.

Hang10.

Anxiety is not a weakness it a tool that

[Summer Rose]

Hi Sarah662

Congratulations on making it through the work week with a migraine. I know it's not easy, so a big WELL DONE.

Try to put your co-worker's unkind remarks into a box and shut the lid. It means nothing. You have already looked at the evidence and there is nothing to support her assertion. Could be a simple misunderstanding or miscommunication. Let's be kind and assume she was having a bad day.

Good luck this week. Take it one day at a time. I always drive through Maccas on a Monday and treat myself to a cappuccino. Sort of cushions the blow and it's always nice to start the week on a positive note. Just a thought.

Post whenever you want, there will always be support here.