Hi everyone,
thank you for taking the time to read my post. I have had depression and anxiety most of my life. I struggle with shyness, but at times I become very lonely. I’m trying to move forward with my life. At this point in time I am unemployed. I am trying to get on top of my mental and physical health. I have multiple appointments coming up with diabetes educator, diabetes specialist and a psychiatry appointment. It’s a lonely road doing it all by myself, but I’m a survivor and I will do it! At this point in time, I have a lot of anxiety about getting back into the workforce. I was in a job where I was constantly bullied, humiliated, and threatened with dismissal almost on a daily basis. My fear is, is that it could potentially happen again. I’m a shy person. I suppose I am what you might call a people pleaser.
My previous girlfriend really wanted me to take this job where I was constantly bullied everyday, so I could get her this expensive engagement ring. I have hopefully learned my lesson about sacrificing my own happiness for someone else’s isn’t worth it.
A lot of the the time I get quite lonely, and will take myself out to the beach, or to a cafe somewhere.
At this point in time my focus is my mental and physical health, then I will start looking for work. Hopefully in the second half of the year I can enrol myself into Tafe to do a course in metal fabrication. I got the meetup app today and found a shyness group that meet for coffee on Sundays.
I still have struggles with my sleep, I am awake most of the night and sleep right though to midday. At times I struggle with suicidal thoughts and anger with all of the bullying that I have experienced. Not just in the workplace, but during my adolescence also.
Hopefully after my appointment with the psychiatrist tomorrow, I can start to heal and make some positive changes in my life.
Thank you for stopping by to read my thread.
kind regards.
