Suicidal thoughts

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For about a month and a half I have been in a depression and anxiety hole that I can't seem to get out of, the constant depression and intrusive thoughts are taxing and I don't see how I can maintain this.

My depression and anxiety make my IBS symptoms worse which gets me deeper into the hole and then they play on each other.

Most days I am waking up sad and going asleep sad, I actually look forward to going to bed so I don't have to feel anything.

I just broke down to my partner and told her all this and how suicide keeps creeping into my mind.

My GP and therapist are away until mid January.

I keep saying to myself let's just get through today but how many times is that going to work.

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Sorry to hear you are feeling this way. I think it would be worth seeing another GP and therapist in the intervening period as that is a long time to go without medical and psychological support. It sounds like a pressing issue that needs to be addressed as it sounds like you are feeling overwhelmed. Do you think some time off work to organise appointments and rest would be useful?

Hayden

Hi mate. Your speaking up, so that’s the first challenge. I’m sorry to hear that your GP and therapist are away till mid January. You’ve been so strong to keep going all this time. Please reach out to the many 24/7 contact numbers that are available to you when you have these thoughts. They are there to support you. It’s hard but we hear you and acknowledge your struggles.

Psychdiaries2

Hi there,

I’m so sorry to hear about the tough time you’re going through right now. Thank you for sharing.

Have you tried breathing techniques for anxiety? It’s something that has been a lifesaver for me. For example, breathe in for 4 seconds, hold for 7, release for 8. It’s worth a try since it really helps you to focus on the present moment and calms your body. As for intrusive thoughts and depression, I understand how exhausting the weight of it can be. Maybe you can try to practice gratitude by naming random things you are grateful for throughout the day. It really shifts your perspective over time.

I hope these strategies help you. They are not ‘quick fixes’, but have definitely helped me so much in tough times over the last few years and in my healing.

Sending love ❤️