dear Kelly, social anxiety causes us to hate the thought of going out and to be with other people, and it then ruins our life to the point of being swamped by a crowd, and their urge to be with us when we don't this to happen.
And because of this is why you didn't want your little cousin to be close to you, but it doesn't mean that you dislike her, I'm sure that you love her, but not at that particular time.
These pain killers must be related to ' a lifetime of things always going wrong', so I am interested as to what has happened to you, just briefly if you like.
I used alcohol as a way to numb my depression, just as many other people may have, but when we wake up the problem is still there, and it could be worse, so it's a vicious circle that goes on from day to day, so it's like we are stamping on the ground in the same spot, and not getting any where.
So the analogy is we have to learn how to get out and run, and by doing this is by seeking professional help.
Kelly we know what you are going through, a lot of us including myself have social anxiety, so that's why I avoid any family get together functions, and with xmas creeping up so quickly it all starts again.
Hope you can reply to us. L Geoff. x
