Struggling at the moment

Toby
Community Member

Hello everyone, this is my first post, so I hope it's ok. I've suffered depression for many years, but it's now developed into, and been diagnosed as, General Anxiety Disorder, which is in my case, is having a much greater detrimental affect on me. I have a loving, very supportive wife, a nice home, and so I know there are many many people worse of than me, & I'm grateful for what I have. Nevertheless, I just cannot shake the anxiety that I have, it's with me all the time, it's affecting my life, what I do, I feel frightened, afraid, have no self confidence, & I just can't get myself going. So, I'm hoping to find support & discussion on Beyond Blue, where I can discuss my issues with other people who may have the same issues. 

 

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Toby
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Well Hello, yes it's me again, the O.P., & it's now been around two months since I joined the forum with my first post. As I've said Generalized Anxiety Disorder which is apparently what I have is just the worst thing, particularly when, like in my case, it's combined with depression which has dogged me for many years. With "G.A.O." one often doesn't feel like doing anything much, with lack of interest in daily tasks etc etc, but in my case, I was feeling so bad, in fact worse than I ever had, made very much worse by my inability to get to sleep. Having been prescribed a medication, I decided to investigate what alternatives there were, because what I was on was certainly not doing the trick for me, and as I investigated I learned that what I was on could actually accelerate insomnia,....which was what was happening to me. And not being able to sleep was not good, not good at all. So I decided to look for alternatives, & I found one, which was said to be more suitable for those with insomnia. Consequently, I rang my psychiatrist, mentioned an alternate medication that may be more suitable for me, I was provided with a prescription & have now been on the new medication for 3 weeks or so with very pleasing results. I'm now having a good night's sleep, & feel much better during the day. I still don't think I'm anywhere near normal, but I'm a lot better than what I was. So my message is, well it seems to be working in my case anyway, if a particular medication is not working for you, have a look around & see if you can find an alternative, because IMHO what's good for one person may not be good for another.

Eagle Ray
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That's great to hear Toby that you are getting better sleep now. Good on you for doing your own research, finding out the issues with the medication you were on, sourcing an alternative and advocating for yourself to try the new one. I think we often have to become our own researcher and advocate as the only way forward at times. I'm really pleased to hear you have improved and wish you the very best,

ER

Dundee
Community Member

that is great news. I had anxiety disorder many years ago - it has just recurred in big way. Starting on medication - two days in - is a nightmare as you often feel worse before better. I feel exhausted by fighting the anxiety and just want to feel like my old self …..so good to hear Toby something is working. I need hope that mine too will turn around so I can resume normal life 

Dundee
Community Member

was it hard starting the medication? Did you feel worse before better? Did you take other stuff in the short term? Thank you for any advice for person two days in …..

quirkywords
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Toby

I have been following your thread and pleased that medication is working. I keep a mood diary so I. A follow how I am going and maybe look at reasons why I am sadder, or less confident than normal.By writing your posts you help others making them aware they are not alone and people are listening. 

Toby
Community Member

Hello Dundee, I think I would've been on the previous medication for maybe 6 weeks, and I just couldn't sleep, which made everything worse. So, I got on the internet & found out that the medication "could" cause insommnia which is what happened in my case. When I changed, after a week or so, I started to sleep better, & am now having good sleeps. BUT, the anxiety is still there, I feel the medication is "holding me up" which is sometimes not a good feeling. So, I just try to look at myself, be thankful for my general health & surroundings, & be thankful,...which I am.