hello.
I hear you, and it takes a lot of courage to share your struggles with others. It sounds like you're going through a challenging time with many stressors, and it's understandable to feel down and anxious.
I think you know that making mistakes is a normal part of the learning process, and it's okay to be kind and patient with yourself. You deserve the same compassion and support that you offer to others. At the same time, I am similar (?) in that I am super self-critical and yet when it comes to others, I help through it. And when that super-critical side come out, it's of the worst kind.
Seeking help and support is a strength, and there's no shame in asking for help when you need it. I hope you find the support and resources you need to navigate this difficult time.
On feeling shameful ... Or perhaps you might be able to look at it from the perspective that you have an insight into what others think and feel? And show empathy?
Would love to talk more to you ... listening if you want to continue to chat.
