Hi ci. Often in our progress, we do tend to back flip. This unfortunately can be part and parcel of recovery. Each time we back flip, we seem to go further back. All I can say is, the back flips you experience quite often aren't as bad as the previous back slip. I know in my case, for a long time I couldn't 'afford' mentally to recall past hurts as it seemed to knock me for days. Where I am now, as opposed to, say, a year ago. Recall doesn't seem as bad for me. When you recall a painful, hurtful experience, the first few times you recall, the pain can be still quite raw. As time progress however, the recall pain seems to lessen. It's almost a grieving process, because you are grieving for the way you were hurt. As you heal, the hurt eases, therefore the recall, or grief isn't quite so painful. Does what I said, make sense, or help you understand clearer? Try to look on the back flip as a set-back, that may help in your future progress if you can.
Lynda.
