Plz help with anxiety

[Anxiety_hell]

My anxiety is out of control its like I'm scared to do anything. Get chest pains all the time from anxiety having them now it just seems to much its hopeless and never going to stop, I try to talk my self out of it, it makes me so tired, I just want to hide in my bedroom or I end up at the hospital.

I have a 15 yr old daughter and just feel like the worst mum wife person that I just can't get over this stupid anxiety.

I just want it to stop I don't even know where it comes from what I'm worrying about. I watched and took both my parents to the hospital when they had heart attacks both OK thank god but now for the last 13 years I have been living in this hell.

I won't put a date on my wedding I feel like I just don't have the energy to do it.

Just want to hide need help to get out of this big black hole I hit bottom in and no way of getting out

Thanks to anyone that can give advice or any story's u have so scared going crazy

[CMF]

Hi AH and welcome,

It's awful that you are going through this and i do feel for you .

You say it has been 13 years. Are you having counseling or and are you on amy medication for the anxiety? Did it start after the incidents with your parents?

If you could share a little more that would be great. There are many wonderful people here with whom you can share your story and get support. You have come to a great place and well done for posting.

cmf

[blondguy]

Hi AH

I used to have anxiety for about 15 years (high level anxiety) and understand where you are coming from. This is a crappy disorder to have. The anxiety feelings do feel real and revolting even though they are still only feelings

Firstly book in to your GP asap. They have much better training than they used to have in the 1980's when I had it.

Your GP will be able to help you AH...No worries there

The good news!! The severity of anxiety does decrease over time with super regular counseling....Monthly is okay but fortnightly or weekly will really lessen the grip that anxiety does have on you.

Please dont suffer on your own with this awful disorder. You can get your quality of life back but it will need time determination and a very strong desire to heal.

Its very very difficult to have all the parental skills on line when we have anxiety of any level

I really hope you can stick around the forums and let us know how you go 🙂

please be kind to yourself

Paul

[Anxiety_hell]

my anxiety started when I was going through a custody battle with my ex partner he was a violent man,back then was having panic attacks daily at end up in the hospital every every week I don't so much have the panic attacks anymore or not as bad but just constant anxiety everyday every minute it's on my mind I went from being a strong independent woman to a scared shell. After rushing my dad to the hospital and seeing how bad he was how close to death I'm having the doctor coming to me and tell me that I saved my dad's life why not calling an ambulance and just racing him there I started to have anxiety about having a heart attack and then a few years later my mum rings me up and asked me to go up there and take her to the hospital because she was having a heart attack so after that now I'm just constantly scared that that's going to happen to me I do get chest pains from inflammation caused by costochondritis and that scares the life out of me.

My fiance is awesome he knows what I go through and if I'm hiding out in the bedroom he knows why I'm there and comes and lays with me even though in my head I just want to be alone and hide from the world but it helps that he's there.

I have gone to counseling a couple of times but never really liked it or liked the people that I've seen I am on antidepressants but they don't seem to be doing anything anymore, I changed a few years ago to these new ones because the other one's weren't helping.

Im on compo at the moment for a back injury so knowing that or not knowing what's going to happen scares me i have alot of days off because of anxity.

Itsjust like all these things running around in my head NeverEnding Story it just seems like too much and not that I'm going to hurt myself or anything but I just don't want to live like this forever being scared always anxious that's not fun

So I finally joined up to Beyond Blue hopefully talking with people can help worth the try 🙂 Thx

[Mr_Walker]

I remember exactly the feeling you're describing - feeling like it will always be that bad - I also found some of the doctors, psychologists, counsellors I saw didn't really fit with me - I'm not suggesting you jump from one to another too much but I think there can be personalities and approaches that suit you better than others...

I also found the anti-depressants worked great at first then sort of wore off - it took a while to find the right medication and dose that worked for me...

I'd say don't give up on therapy even if it's seemed like it hasn't been that great before... Also I think it sometimes takes a certain AMOUNT of therapy to start getting on top of it - especially when you've had Anxiety for a long time - it can take a long time to untangle the habits and thought patterns the Anxiety has ingrained in you.. Like the medication the therapy can take a while before it FEELS like it's helping...

And yes just talking about it with ANYONE helps a lot!

[Anxiety_hell]

Thankyou so much for replying it does help to talk about it. Well yesterday I had a melt down, ended up alone partner left (he's back now) and I finally opened up about everything lost it cried yelled smashed stuff and just a big mess. So today we went to our doctor and I opened up to him start seeing the a counselor on Wednesday morning (just hope I can do it) ment to be at work but I really need to fix me 1st

So last week was my 1st time on here and this week will be my 1st time seeing someone in sooooooooo long I think because I had a bad experience with one when I was much much younger after the loss of my baby I just don't seem to trust people. Fingers crossed I get along with this guy and he doesn't seem like he's the one that needs counseling lol

Thanks for chatting with me hopefully I can write something nice about this fella on Wednesday xxx

[Mr_Walker]

That's great news! I found any kind of progress helps the anxiety too - I have trouble with using the phone quite often and it's hard for me to make appointments! But as soon as it's booked I feel a bit better...

And yes I had a couple of unsuccessful therapists too which put me off - an unsympathetic GP and a psychologist who's style just didn't work for me somehow... In hindsight I wish I'd just booked with someone else right away instead of writing off the whole process, but I wasn't thinking straight at the time!

Good luck on Wednesday - let us know how it goes!

[Anxiety_hell]

Hey

It went well I get along with him, just think my head spins and I haven't got enough time to get everything out. Anxiety is still really bad (left work the other day just walked out after having a panic attack there not happy with me ooops just couldn't stop myself)

WISH IT WOULD JUST STOP haven't slept much I know that doesn't help

Just wish I knew why I am this way sick of living in this head when really nothings really that bad in my life have my partner who supports me with everything a beautiful daughter a roof over my head a job and a crazy head just don't want to be this way

Thanks for writing to me xxx

[blondguy]

Hi AH

Good on you for having the determination to see your your doc and a counselor. That takes a lot of strength!

When your head is spinning and you have so much to say is normal which why the frequency of appointments is important for the healing process.

I remember the frustration of having these anxiety attacks for 13 years and they are debilitating no to mention how much they drain our mental energy which then makes us more vulnerable to having more anxiety again.

When the counselor asks questions that place you out of your comfort zone is a good thing. Sure its uncomfortable but having a huge mega cry in front of a therapist will reduce a ton of built up tension and thus make you less vulnerable to anxiety disorder with frequent visits.

It would have been awful to have left work with severe anxiety AH. I really feel for you as I have done the same at work as well.

Anxiety is confusing as we cant 'see' it. Is it partially chemically based which makes it a physical condition like diabetes or a serious infection. There is no guilt or embarrassment leaving work when we are crook.

Ask your counselor about 'Acceptance Therapy'. This does work very well and teaches us not to fear the anxiety thus making it much less powerful. It does take time, practice and mega determination but it works well.

I really hope you have some better days ahead as your deserve to have some peace in your life AH

Thankyou too for posting back...you are never alone here

my kind thoughts

Paul

[Mr_Walker]

Hi AH,

Sorry, I disappeared from the forums for a little while, hope you're going well? It does take a while to get through all the information you want to convey to your therapist - often the first few sessions seem to be just explaining your back-story before you can get onto real progress for the future...

Good luck, J