Hey Hope!
I have to agree with Ecomama, we're a bit left in the dark on what's going on so it's hard to say how we can reassure you.
However, I have some very solid advice I've learnt through dealing with panic attacks, you're very right when you say running away doesn't help and things will only resurface. Each time you leave a stressful situation, you're reinforcing in your brain that this IS something to be anxious about, sure you get the relief then and there, but it'll only be harder to face the same challenge or similar in the future. You very much train your brain when it comes to anxiety, so the more tough situations you push on through the more resilient you'll become, and this is a powerful tool, people without similar anxieties could never develop. So it's your secret weapon in the long run.
This past year I've spent slowly building myself up, from getting my Ls and driving to being able to be in public spaces and not panic. I have to be honest it's still not the easiest thing in the world, but of late I've felt okay going out. This whole process were all baby steps, built me up to where I am now and where I'll be in the future as long as I keep pushing forward.
Anything you do that is towards your desired goal is an accomplishment, I know all to well how hard it is, and from a stranger on the internet, for each and every step you've taken I'm extremely proud of you.
I'm sorry for the frustrations you have to deal with, but they won't be forever. Also try not to put pressure on yourself and remember if it's a situation you can't control, accept it's out of your control, worrying about something you can't do anything about will only cause more stress than it warrants.
We all support you, if you ever need to share more we'll hear you out.
Wishing for the best 🙂
