Hello! I'm not exactly new here, but it's been a while since I first posted here last year, and I would appreciate it if someone could help with my situation.
I've graduated from high school and life's been good so far, I've reconnected with my old friends despite my busy schedule. This week, I have free time and think that reconnecting with an old high school friend would be a good idea this weekend.
My friend, "F", very kind and overall nice friend, but the thing is she's too nice. She told me that she can go hang out with me this weekend. But then, she mentioned her friend "D" and she said she would like to go together another time. And between me and D, let's say that we're not in the best terms, and every time someone mentioned her name, I have a sudden feeling of panic and fear and I feel like I'm suffocating.
I don't know if I'm being anxious, just dramatic, or overreacting, but back in middle school, D always clinging to me and... let's say she manipulated me through her words. In middle school days, she hated the girls from other class and wouldn't allow me to interact them, hell, even when I only greeted the girls with a wave of hand, she slapped my hand and told me if I talk to them, she would never talk to me ever. D had done pretty bad things to me; "borrowing" my money just to buy phone data, told me I was heartless when I decided to go to different extracurricular club than her, breaching my privacy by seeing through my chats between me and my family and friends, seeing my diary, teasing about my "crush" on a boy that I wasn't interest that I deemed to be a good person, and many more. She even made an upperclassman confronting me because I take her "joke" badly when in reality it hurts me and I don't want to be joked about my non-existent crush. Overall, she trapped me.
I once talked about my problem with D to my teacher, and apparently D got a wind of it and things got worse. It's a miracle I've survived two years of middle school with her presence around before I moved away and never get "triggered" of her name. Now I'm back, and it's been a while that I've heard her name, and now I'm getting flashbacks and horrible memories. I'm scared. I thought I'm over with her, but her name gives me those flashbacks again and I couldn't help it. It makes me anxious. I don't want to see her. What should I do? What should I say to F that I don't want D in my life anymore?
Scintilla.
