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[doit]

Hey all

Only just signed up don't know why I waited so long. Been struggling with anxiety for 10 years, hard to tell if its getting better or worse, the more it engulfs areas of my life it never used to, the better I get at handling it, so yea a bit hard to tell if I'm making progress overall.

About 2 years ago I got into mindfulness, and of all things I've tried it was the only thing that seemed to conquer it completely, and to anyone who hasn't tried it I highly, highly recommend it. I hadn't felt so relaxed since I was probably 12 years old.

My problem is sticking to the tools, ie mindfulness. I will do the exercises and feel great but then after a while get lazy and slowly drift back in anxiety, or I will remodel my lifestyle to be more busy, but slowly get lazy and drift back to where I started. Often something bad will happen and it will rattle my resolve, testing my faith in tried and tested tools. Then I slip back in, beating myself up along the way.

Anyway that's the basic outline of my story. Will leave it at that. Had a bad run the last week or so, same old story, get back on mindfulness, have a s--t day, lose momentum, start again.

[geoff]

dear Doit, welcome aboard and thanks for joining us in our endeavour to heal ourselves.

We can't know ourselves if our anxiety is worse than before, although we can presume but other people around us can tell whether or not we are improving or not.

Mindfulness is a great way to try and relax to a certain degree, but it means work, and we have to continue these exercises 24/7, and then this becomes hard work in itself.

I did an online course for helping me with my OCD of 54 years, it was OK when I did them and had to report back my supervisor, but once the course had finished then I didn't keep on doing these exercises, so I went back to square one, so actually it was a waste of time, because when I knew that could reduce these habits from what I had learnt, it was all too much, and I was more relaxed doing them.

Anxiety is the course for OCD, so I just wonder if you have it as well. Geoff.

[Pixie15]

Hi doit,

I know what you mean about the daily struggle. Participating on the BB has helped me a lot I really hope it helps you. 

Peace,

Daisy.