hi PC, to watch your parents argue or more so that domestic violence was happening must have been an awful site to watch and would make you feel frightened as well as being scared, so of course this will cause anxiety, so whether PTSD has been the cause for you start drinking is certainly very much the case.
I do remember a post you replied to, which I also did, but I'm sorry I can't quite remember it, but I think it was about an alcohol issue, or maybe I'm wrong, but never the less, this post is very concerning.
If you drink too much then you will black out and there is a possibility that you may develop seizures, and as I'm an epileptic having 'grand mal'the worse fits you can have, where you don't know where you are, what year it is, who is PM and the list goes on.
It also leaves you very tired and just want to sleep and don't know how to get your bedroom and can I assure you that you never want to have ny of these, but if you continue to black out then it could, which means that you are not allowed to drive a vehicle until these fits stop.
When anyone has been drinking then it changes their personality, even to those they dearly love, and to repair the damage caused by this is never easy, and even if you are able to do this, it may back fire again when you drink once more.
There are many people who need to drink alcohol so that they can cope, however there are other possible ways of getting help with this.
You have raised the flag here as you know that you need to stop drinking, that's an enormous call by you, but seems to be a sensible one, but you won't be able to do this by yourself not unless you are fully determined to do so, but there maybe times when something goes wrong and you feel as though you to drink so that you will cope, or you go out with your mates who try and encourage to have just one drink, but one drink is too much.
Firstly your doctor can give you some medication which will stop the urge to want to drink, and even if you do you won't get the buzz, but it will only work if you are sure that it's time to stop, otherwise it's a waste of time and money.
(will continue)
