My battle with anxiety and severe depression started for me when I was nine years old after something traumatic happened to me. I then became a teenager and trouble for me began, I was always restless,had lots of friends but always felt alone I always had the feeling that something bad was going to happen,these feelings where so bad I felt sick most of the time.
I left school, got a job as a hairdresser in the family business, I worked hard, and I also learnt how to party hard, I discovered a numbing agent it was called drugs and alcohol. I was twenty,full of life but always searching for something better, I soon discovered that my life was very complicated and that holding onto my secret since I was nine was coming to the surface, so my way of coping was numbing myself as much as possible.
Then one day I was at a friends house and her cousin was visiting from the Gold Coast, and I was in love, he was gorgeous he had blonde hair and was riding a motor bike. So we went out a few times as a group but soon discovered we only wanted to talk to each other.Well he never went back to the Gold Coast, he stayed, got a job, and we fell madly in love. I thought everything was pretty good in my life but I still had my demons.
We got engaged and twelve months later we got married. Everything was beautiful, we started our lives together but I was always anxious and on edge. We moved to my hometown where my amazing parents and brother lived, my brother was a hairdresser as well he was the salon manager. I was twenty four and we just found out that we where going to have a baby. Our beautiful daughter was born and I soon discoveted very early on that being a Mum
