Hello H3ll0
What you're experiencing is the same as I am experiencing right now with my partner (without the breakup) My partner was texting women that I felt inappropriate and don't know why is he doing it. It made me doubt my thoughts so much. There were lots of unwanted stress that's making me upset and getting angry about. I showed the worst tantrum by hurting him. I even wanted to break up with him cause I really couldn't take it anymore. It kept eating me. More over the negative though of feeling grew to hatred. I get the thought of exactly what you were thinking. (exactly the same - "I'm not good enough", "I can't make her happy", "she is better off without me") I do everything for him what am I doing wrong. Why is he wanting for others. Saying that, I looked back to the happiness we share. The laugh that he makes me laugh. The crazy things that make me giggle and happy. The idiotic face he does just to see me happy. Look at the good things then the bad things. Yes I have accept what he is doing. Maybe he is helping them to overcome their sadness and allowing them to grow back cause what they are facing is life. Family, partner and etc.
When tragedy happen the first thing that come into the mind is the negative imagination never the good one. We can never run away from problem we need to encounter it. Face it. Face the reality. That's what I did. We can't keep running away. Talk to your girlfriend. Tell her what you feel. Express what you are going through to her.That's how I told my partner. I express my dissatisfaction, upset, angry and depression. If he hear or not at least I have expressed it and I don't want him to loose that enjoyment. Sometimes I just have to breath in to reality and think the happiness.
What your are experiencing will be in your mind. It will be in you unless you speak it out. Talk it out. It will help. There are may people who will listen if you let them to but you need to remember it's you to take the first step. It's you to take the leap if you just give that. A chance for your self. And to a surprise you will feel again. If you want we can talk. I may not be expert but we can talk.
