Just a lil rough patch

[rb26]

I just wanted to open up about how I’ve feeling but I had no idea where to go. I’ve never fully talked to anyone about how I feel. When I’ve tried to people don’t seem to understand or I feel so damn judged. For example, I tried to open up to my really boyfriend but he decided he was entitled to tell all my other friends, proceeded to create a group chat after which I had a confrontation by two friends. So Ive convinced myself for the past few years that I am ok or whatever I’m feeling isn’t internalised, just a rough patch. Recently I’ve been feeling so run down and upset, I don’t know why. School is tough but that doesn’t account for why I just start crying or feeling insecure all of a sudden. I have always had an overthinking issue but it’s been taking over all my thoughts these past few months. Sometimes I genuinely just hate myself and feel like I have no purpose in life which scares the crap out of me. I constantly get annoyed or frustrated at the most small things. I’ve held a lot in and been secretive, like coming out to my parents, my boyfriend which my parents don’t know about, my own insecurities- why I’ve been eating less. I genuinely just feel tired of life and I’m only 16...

this all feels a little silly and scary since I’m not used to opening up but thank god it’s anonymous 🙂

[Sophie_M]

Hey rb26,

Welcome to our wonderful forums. We are really glad you took the first and important step of reaching out and sharing what you are going through. That takes a lot of courage so kudos for that! We are really sorry to hear that the last time you took the chance of opening up about what you are feeling, that your privacy wasn't honoured and caused you further hurt. We can understand how difficult it must be to try and cope with distressing feelings and thoughts while trying to put on a brave front. That must feel very isolating and non-validating. Please know that you have come to a safe place where you will be able to share your experiences free of judgement and our lovely community members will provide their input and support to help you.

We are sorry you are struggling with increasing feelings of hopelessness and overwhelm. It sounds like you would really benefit for speaking to someone and we would like to encourage you to get in touch with Kids Helpline - https://kidshelpline.com.au/ 
Kids Helpline counsellors can be contacted 24/7 via telephone and also via webchat if you go through the website provided.

We also encourage you having a chat with your school nurse or counsellor.

It can feel scary to reach out for help but there are great resources out there and you don’t have to feel alone.

Thanks again for reaching out as we know that it can be really tough to do this for the first time. We hope that you find some comfort here in the words of wisdom and kindness that our community can offer.

[Tay100]

Hi rb26

Thanks for posting- we know it can be scary to do when you are feeling low and hopeless. I second Sophie_M's suggestions- seeking professional help may help bring you the insight and support you need. Sorry to hear about the way your boyfriend handled things too- is there anyone in your real life you can reach out too? If not your parents, maybe a trusted friend, or a school nurse/councillor? You can also use this thread to touch base with us and continue to share whatever parts of your story you like as well.

Tay100

[rb26]

Thank you so much for such a warm welcome 🙂 I was comfortable chatting with my precious school counsellors but unfortunately she left. I will definitely try out the kids helpline sometime soon

[rb26]

Hi Tay 100,

I honestly wouldn’t mind seeking professional help but my parents are not too open to the idea. As I said to Sophie_M I really wish I could reach out to my school counsellor but she left. My friends seem to think I’m fine because my life seems pretty average (having a boyfriend, getting good grades, etc) and just fail to understand. I might try reaching out to a friend again however it can be really painful when they tell you that your completely a-okay, disregarding your feelings altogether.

thank you so much for the welcome, it means a lot:)

[Petal22]

Hello rb26,

Sorry you are feeling this way... I’m also sorry to hear how your boyfriend dealt with it when you tried to open up...

Try to build yourself up... fill your mind with positive thoughts... tell yourself positive things about yourself... look for the best in every thing.... you can build yourself a positive mindset...

Feel that heart beating inside your chest that’s purpose you are supposed to be here...

if things don’t improve for you seek professional help... you could start at your gp..... you could do a mental health plan with them this will give you 20 free appointments with a phycologist who will be able to give you many strategies... it helps to talk... I seeked professional help it was the best thing I ever did 😊

you have a wonderful future in front of you... believe good things are coming 😊

[rb26]

Thanks so much for your support, its much appreciated. I would seek medical support however my parents aren’t too big on the mental health scene, however I think that may have to do with their own deep-rooted problems 😞 I’ve been trying to be more positive too but I understand it’ll take a while before things start looking up again, it doesn’t happen overnight unfortunately.
Once again, thank you so much m

[Petal22]

No worries rb26 , 😉 yes it does take a little while to build a positive mind set.... just keep practicing read positive affirmations... 😊 lots of them...

oh ok ...... if you are feeling low for some time please consider seeing a professional... there is nothing wrong with seeking help.... 😊 they are health professionals and are here to help us 😊

[Tay100]

Hi rb26

It can be tricky when those around us don't understand our situation or validate our need/desire to seek help, especially when seeking professional help can be a daunting thing to do by yourself. I suggest looking at the resources Sophie_M posted- these services can link you to anonymous services/resources you can use to help you navigate these services on your own, even if your parents aren't as supportive as they could be right now.

Tay100