Intrusive thoughts overpowering daily life

Gm
Community Member

Hi. Not sure how to do this.

I have an issue with intrusive thoughts. Really awful things that I can't control or let go of. I try to find distractions to occupy my mind and keep them at bay, and sometimes it works really well.

However, more often than not something will happen to trigger an intrusive thought(s) process while I'm doing whatever it is I am doing to distract myself. I feel a heavy weight in my chest, and from then on I feel like I can't do what I enjoy anymore because it now has that negative connotation with it. It feels like my mind is trying to seek out whatever I love doing and making it into something ugly; a new trigger. The last time it happened was today, which prompted me to post this.

Has anyone else experienced this? How did you deal with it? I feel lost.

Hope this made sense. Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated. 

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BenD
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hi Gm,

I think I know what you mean - it's like a irrational thought is placed in your head when you are doing something that is supposed to be enjoyable, or at least neutral, and then that thought grows till you realise that you have stopped enjoying what you are doing and it becomes a tiresome effort. That's what it's like for me anyway.

Firstly, good idea by describing the physical symptoms (i.e. the heaviness in your chest). You can practice managing the physiological changes that the intrusive thoughts create by doing things like slow, deep breathing. Exercise helps a lot as well.

^That stuff I learned from a psychologist.

On a deeper level, why are those thoughts intrusive and are they rational (if not, are they worthy of your mental energy)?

I'll give you an example (albeit a simplistic one).

Yesterday I was playing footy. Usually I'm pretty good at kicking, but all of a sudden I had one bad kick and a process of thoughts ignited in my brain - "that was terrible", "you've never been a good kick", "remember all those times when you stuffed up your kicking", "you are a failure". I was scared of kicking for the rest of the game (I even gave a few goals away because of it!).

I remember really looking forward to playing before the game and not enjoying it after my (single) negative experience. It felt like it ruined the fun for me.

Looking back on it now I can see how silly of me it was to think that way. There were loads of positive experiences that the game provided, yet I neglected them because they did not conform to my (problematic) belief that "I am a failure".

In your case, it might be helpful to look at what belief your thoughts are conforming to, and whether or not the evidence you have actually supports that belief.

^That stuff I learned from Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) which was provided by a psychologist.

Heres a CBT package for Generalised Anxiety that I found very helfpul: http://www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/resources/infopax.cfm?Info_ID=46

Hope I could be of some service,

Ben

Gm
Community Member

Hi Ben,

Thank you for responding to my post. I am currently seeing a councilor about my issues, and I'll definitely look into the links you've provided.

I just find it difficult because the intrusive thoughts don't actually originate from the task I'm doing; it's something completely separate that my brain tries to latch onto what I'm doing and make it awful. It's really just a matter of how long until the intrusive thoughts pop up randomly.

Thanks again for posting, I think it helps a bit to get feedback.   

Mishka
Community Member

Hi gm,

           I know what its like to have random disturbing thoughts. A skill that has really helped me is thought challenging. You have to write down the thought than examine it. ask questions like is this thought helpful? Is it realistic? Answer these questions than let the thought go. you will feel better. When you are doing an activity and a bad thought comes to mind just think is this thought helpful no than let it go. Then try to think of something pleasant.

You should practice this everyday.

Hope this helps!

white knight
Community Champion
Community Champion

Hi GM,  what a great post. and thanks to all that have posted here with information.

With ADHD, of which there are two types I think. I believe I had the non focusing type. I'd stare out of the school window all the time and my mind would go all over the place.

Wondering if this lack of control has anything to do with mind wandering of which you are mentioning?

Certainly you GM are not alone....some comfort there eh ?