I'm new here.... + Medication

TheArtistFormerlyKnownAsN
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SO... long story short, I've had a bit of a battle with Generalised Anxiety and Depression over the last few years. It took me a while to get the courage up to get to the point where I had to admit that I needed some help by way of medication.

I've had some varying experiences with counselling etc prior, and I had some good patches after, but the cold, hard reality of GAD has come back to bite me time after time.

My doc has me on medication. That's easy to manage, but I'm still coming to terms with the side effects. The first day or so, I had quite the headache. Since then, I've just been really vague, or "foggy". I can function and do what I need to do at work, at home with the family etc, but it's a conscious battle to force myself along, rather than to allow myself to procrastinate and "zombie out", so to speak.

Is this kind of thing normal, and when should I expect to see some benefit? The doc told me that I'd feel a little off for 2-4 weeks while the medication "sinks in", and everyone is different I suppose. I decided to join a gym last night, so hoping that can help too.

A bit of my back story... I was in a good paying job, but I really hated it. The work itself was just ok, but the management and red tape were ridiculous. I've managed to find myself a better paying job, in a slightly different field, but with a hell of a lot less stress, so that's great. On the home front, I have a 3, nearly 4, year old daughter an early-teen step-daughter. I really struggle with my step-daughter, she's really hard work. We are cut from different cloth, and the influence her father has on her means we'll probably always struggle. My youngest daughter is a daddy's girl, she's my shadow. I love her with all a father can, but yeah... she's hard work, as are all toddlers! There isn't a moment's rest when we are home together, meaning I get very little peace (which I thrive on), and I don't really have much of a sanctuary away from the home struggles. My partner and I have had an up and down relationship, especially the last 2 years. At one point, I was living out of the family home for a month, while we decided where we went from there. We are back together, and things are still up and down. When it's good, it's really good, but when it's not.... yeah, it's horrible.

 

Anyway - any advice, ideas or otherwise are all greatly appreciated!

Cheers,

Nath

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Hi Nath, that's great news! Nothing like that first feeling of improvement! I think, even when you take a few steps backwards from time to time it's not quite as bad because at least you KNOW you can and WILL have good days again!

Exactly right Mr Walker! I fully expect some backward steps along the journey, but i'll have a little more confidence that the good times will also return.

I have plenty of motivation, my little girl inspires me every day, but I also need this for ME. I really need to get back to being the person I once was...

Hi Nath,

Wonderful news that the meds have kicked in for you! I still experience the odd fluctuation in mood, but for me, the ADs are the safety net beneath the highwire. Thanks so much for your feedback.

Ladyhawke

Hi Ladyhawke,

Thanks so much - I feel quite a lot better at the moment. Like you've said - I still get the odd fluctuation in mood etc, but overall I'm consistently better. According to my Doc, the ADs I am taking aren't a type you can just stop cold turkey, you need to ween off them, and also that they are intended for you to take over a long period of time to help your body, boost levels of whatever it needs etc. So while I am feeling better, I still need to remain vigilant, keep on this path and do what I need to do.

Thanks again to all who have replied and given some advice, it's awesome to know there are people out there who understand, aren't judgemental and honestly care. You're all amazing!!

Cheers,

Nath

Hi nath how long have you been on the ad's before you saw improvement. Im at the starting line at the monent.

Sorry for the late reply - I've been offline for a little while, a bit of a mental break.

It was 2 weeks to the day that I noticed any difference. I had a good 4 day block, then I went down hill again for about 4 days. Since then I've been pretty good in all honesty.

The worst bit of the first 2 weeks is the constant headache and just being generally vague - I was a bit of a space cadet!

I hope you're keeping well.

- Nath

Can i ask what were you like before the meds? And when you say you have been good are you thinking more clearly and being able to do things on your own and returning to normal life.

Before the meds - I was very up tight, ALWAYS had a tight chest, a sickly feeling in my throat, I was short tempered/impatient, heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest, high blood pressure, fatigued, tired, sore all over, and generally very little enthusiasm. I very rarely smiled or laughed.

Since beginning meds and now they've settled in, I still get a few symptoms here and there, but much less severe, but I'm more in tune with them and am able to pull myself up before I fall too low. I see things more clearly, I'm not in panic mode, I'm generally more positive (despite some stressful family situations), and I even smile/laugh occasionally lol. I probably don't sleep as well, but only marginally. I am a lot more tolerant and calm.

I have found that weekdays are the easiest - I am still struggling on weekends, not 100% sure why. Being home, around family and general family life are real stressors for me - we have a 3 and a half year old who is all go - so there is very little quiet time, relaxing at home before 7.30pm is unheard of.

Im stuggling more with being alone so the days i know my mother is working i freak out because ive become quite attached to her and my boyfriend.

Also i have a father who has a brain injury and pretty much has the mind of a 5 year old. So its hard to be calm around him also because hes full on. I worry something will happen to him when its just me watching him. Because there is still a chance he could have another brain bleed.

I just hope the meds give me confidence to manage on my own