I know what’s it’s like not to have anxiety

[Guest_2658]

Hey!

bit of a weird post this but here goes.

I have had anxiety since day one. But only discovered I had it about 10 years ago when I was late 30’s.

then about 7 years ago my circumstances changed completely. Because of this change my anxiety totally and utterly went away. Oh man for 5 years I know what life is really like. It was like I had been driving in the fog for all that time and now the road was totally clear.

It was the most fabulous time of my life. Things were still going wrong but my ability to cope with wrong was incredible.

My anxiety is now back and the fog has returned. I’m fearful of the past and future again. Sleep is non existent. But I’ll always be grateful for those 5years.

It really is true what they say about anxiety. People who suffer from it ...we live in a parallel universe from non suffers. Our anxiety gives us an incorrect version of reality. I now know that for certain.

As I say an odd post but it is what it is.

Peace and love xx

[geoff]

hello Beyondblueanon, welcome to the site and very sorry that your anxiety has returned.

If you have previously changed your circumstances is an excellent way of learning to cope with your anxiety, that's precisely what I did to overcome my depression and self medicating with alcohol, it changed my life just as it did for yourself, but unfortunately it stays in our system.

Anxiety is a fear we have learned from stress or perhaps some trauma which has happened before and is quite easily added onto by other events and can become very intense, and you certainly know when it's about to happen, the feeling is horrific and very unpleasant.

We all have our trigger points but by changing your circumstances may change your situation and put them on hold, but this doesn't mean that you won't have a relapse, and yes I've had them a few times but I am able to able to feel better once again.

It's a new defense that I know I have to add onto my trigger points, ways to overcome it, or even stop it before it happens and then I can begin to feel better once more. Geoff.

[CMF]

Hi bbanon7 and welcome,

i too am sorry your anxiety has returned but what a great story about how good it feels when it goes away. I too have periods of no anxiety at times and try to make the most of it while it lasts.

do you want to hare what changed in your life to make it go away? No pressure, only if you want to. Sometimes we get so stuck that we don't realise the options for change that could make us feel better. Sometimes we are just to scared to make the change.

wishing you the best

cmf

[Guest_2658]

Hey there

I would never be able to replicate what happened 7 years ago. It was not something I changed it was a series (five or six) of very fortunate events that happened to me. (Nope not the lottery) .

The worst thing this time is the sleep! Oh man sleep. I’m use to it now but my memory is starting to go and I cannot see things directly in front of me (maybe early dimentia) . I’ve tried every trick in the book to sleep. (Except acupuncture which is next on list). Seen sleep doctors , therapy, pills,diet, exercise,mindfulness, transcendental meditation and yoga. Nothing fixes the sleep. (By the way i keep doing most of above and I don’t drink much)

I get this weird white noise in my head that never goes away. It’s not in my ears ,it’s in my head. I think it’s something to do with that. One doc told me that it sounds like I might have PTSD.

hey. It’s nice to put it down on forum. I know some things cannot be solved . Be happy with what I got.

[CMF]

Hi again,

I enjoy your positive outlook and it's great that you are benefiting fron posting here. Keep posting as much as you need, it's a great family here.

I hope you can get the sleep sorted.

CMF

[Guest_2658]

Hey! How can I post a new thread? I cannot find it anywhere. The only option I can see is reply?

As I said my sleep deprevision has started some kind of dementia. I cannot see things easily anymore due to lack of sleep.

Any help appreciated on how to post a new post.

[CMF]

You need to go to 'all posts' then choose your topic ie depression, anxiety etc from there you will see on the right hand side an option for new thread.

[Guest_2658]

Hi There

I was just wondering.

Is it possible that my body is sleeping and my mind never shuts down? Are there two parts of the brain controlling sleep? One for the body and one for the mind? Have I broken the part of my brain that controls brain sleep? (I know that's a very simplistic way of putting it).

It would be great to chat to someone in similar situation (my brain/body sleep disorder has been on going for over 2 years). Would be great if anyone understand why it is not fixing itself.

thanks

[Ggrand]

Hello Guest,

What a unique way of thinking..I like it... I also have a very hard time shutting my brain down enough for it to sleep..Unfortunately my body does not sleep unless my brain does...maybe if one breaks the other one does shut down..

Well done on having a few years anxiety free, that would be an amazing feeling...I hope you manage to get their again..

Grandy..