I just want to be normal again

[Sherry8888]

Hi every one

I've been suffering from social anxiety/PTSD for 8 years now. I had it under control until about a month ago when i had a panic attack at work. Now my anxiety has gone through the roof. About 8 years ago i was held up at my previous job and a year later i started having panic attacks. I didnt know what they were and why i was feeling the way i was feeling. I was put on anti depressants and it did calm me down a bit but not in social situations and when i had to or people introduced me to other people. Time went by and i turned to alcohol and would drink before an interview for new jobs and going out to even lunch with friends.

Time has gone by and i have an awesome job now and i work with great people who understand what i go through eveyday. I go to the gym every morning, eat healthy, no caffeine, see a psychologist once a week and rarely drink alcohol. But lately ever since my recent panic attack at work (meeting potential clients. I had to introduce myself and couldnt so i got up and let the room because i was so scared) i've strayed away from my friends and just want to be alone. I'm scared to go to work eveyday because i dont want to have another panic attack at work again. I'm trying to be strong but the thoughts and feelings are just getting to much for me some days.

I just wanted to come here and share my story

[white knight]

Hi Sherry, welcome

Thankyou for sharing that.

If you didn't like your new job I'd be suggesting you continually look for other more ideal work, that is in less contact with other people. But loving your new job makes that hard and leave you with little options.

Further therapy and GP visits to review your meds are the logical steps to take so I hope you do that.

Relaxation. I got rid of my anxiety fully but it took a long time. Muscle tensioning exercises were the best for me while lying in bed each night before sleeping. That process takes 20 minutes. Find someone that can teach you that or read up on the internet. It really works.

Deep breathing also works.

All the best

Tony WK