Basically, I have a habit of going to bed and then thinking through what I did and said that day, and then getting caught up in little bits of conversation or my actions and whether they offended somebody, or made me come across as rude. I usually end up finding some little thing to fixate on and then obsess over whether I was out of line, and I'm tired of it. It takes a lot of energy, but I can't stop doing it until I'm sure that the other person has forgotten about it or was not offended in the first place (which are both very hard things to find out), or until I find something new to fixate on and let that fester in my brain instead.
For example, last week, my teacher asked me to answer a question but addressed me by the name of one of my classmates, instead of my actual name. I stared at him for a few seconds (I remember not really knowing what to do) until my classmate (whose name was called instead of mine) told him that he had called her name instead, and then he went to check the class list and finally said the right name. At the time, I didn't think much of it, but now I'm really worried. I feel like I overreacted a lot, and now he probably thinks I'm rude. Names are important and all, but he IS a busy man and probably has to remember a ton of names, plus it's an honest mistake that everybody makes. I should've just corrected him politely and then carried on, but nO I had to stare at him, and now I've spent two hours panicking over it. I'm trying to console myself that he probably has forgotten by now, but even so, I feel like it was really rude of me to do that, and I have no way of contacting him to apologise. This happens too frequently to be healthy. Please help me out and be honest- was I rude??
