Feeling lost & I don't know how to cope

[FindingMyWay]

Hi all, I'm new to this site & forum 🙂 

I am 30 years old, have an amazing husband, and family support. I have a successful career and enjoy my job. I didn't have the best childhood it wasn't your typical Mum, Dad & siblings - my siblings and I were raised by my grandparents. Growing up I was very shy and didn't like to socialise, I still don't socialise as I have a fear of not being accepted. I always feel like I'm being judged. 

When I was 23 years old I was diagnosed with Anxiety and have ever since struggled on a daily basis. At work or with friends I put on a smile but underneath I feel like I just want to break down and cry and say I'm not okay. At home my poor husband sees the real me and my daily struggle to be happy. I know that it hurts my husband to see me like this and he doesn't understand how I'm feeling. 

I have frequent panic attacks and I worry about EVERYTHING! Even the littlest thing can worry me 😞 

I have my good days and my bad, but lately it has been more bad than good. 

The past 4-5 weeks I've been struggling to cope with my Anxiety and at present feel like I'm in a black hole and can't get out. I see a Psychologist fortnightly and do meditation & yoga to try help with the panic attacks, but I'm finding that I'm becoming so depressed I don't want to leave the house. I feel so lost and don't know where to turn? x

[Chloekat84]

Firstly i would like to say welcome to BB. There are many friendly people on these forums who you can vent to or need to just talk to for advice. Anxiety is a horrible illness. I have it myself and have had it for nearly 10 years but it ha only become really bad lately in the last few months. I'm sure your husband will understand if you just give him a chance. At least you have that shoulder to cry on when thins get tough. U need to tell your psychologist that your not coping and maybe see your GP who can refer you onto a psychiatrist although i know there's a waiting list. I need to wait 2 months to see one 😞 Anyways welcome again and if you need to chat we are here 🙂 Take care x

[FindingMyWay]

Thank you Chloekat84! 

[Chloekat84]

Only here to listen and help if i can 🙂 x

[Aggy]

Hi FindingMyWay.

Welcome to BB and hope you're having a good day today.

So many people here are willing to listen and help you, it really is a great place to turn to whenever you need. Sometimes just typing in your feelings can help so don't be afraid to just express your thoughts.

My anxiety is running wild today so I thought I might try and help someone else and hopefully make two people feel a bit better.

I wonder what meds if any, you are taking? Also, your husband can ring BB on the number at the top of the page. It's a great way to find out more about helping a loved one that has some problems. They offer great advice and are happy to help.

Just like all of us are happy to help too.

-Aggy.