Feeling lonely and scared

[Feather_Robin]

Hi everyone. I have had anxiety all my life it just comes and goes. But it's really here this time and I feel so horrible. I'm worrying about everything my mind is racing, I feel sick and my heart is constantly racing. I've tried to be logical and calm myself down but I can't stop thinking about the worst possible situation. I feel like I just want to run away or be a dark room and just sleep so i don't have to be awake to feel like this. I've tried my a b and cs but it's just not working. I just wanted to post on here so I don't feel as lonely and I just need someone to tell me everything is going to be okay xx

[Zeal]

Hi Robin,

Thanks for posting. Severe anxiety is so hard to get through. I've had OCD since I was 13, and really struggled with this in the past. If you become extremely anxious, don't have someone to talk to and/or don't know what to do, give Beyondblue a call on 1300 22 4636. This is a confidential and supportive service. Making an appointment with your GP for a referral to a psychologist or psychiatrist (whichever is recommended by your doctor) is a good idea too.

Everything will be okay if you seek help. Keep in touch with family and good friends, as best you can. You are definitely not alone. You can post more on this thread, or respond on other areas of the forum. This is a supportive and non-judgemental community.

Best wishes,

SM

[Mummybee]

You're not alone.

sometimes I find comfort in just reading through these threads, knowing that others are going through the same thing. 

Just keep breathing, seek help and take each day at a time.

[darthritis]

Im exactly the same Mummybee! I've had GAD forever and sometimes just want to read these forums so I dont feel so isolated and scared. If i know other people are surviving it too I don't feel so alone.

[Feather_Robin]

Thank you. I did call beyond blue the other day and they were great just really don't want to have to take medication for this again. 

I'm trying to be strong but it's just so up and down and I'm emotionally exhausted I just want it to stop and for my mind to think logically! Xx

[Moonstruck]

Hello  Feather Robin.....yes everything is going to be okay!  My horrible anxiety demons have returned over past weeks also...and I agree it can be So Hard....to keep re directing your thoughts (and our thoughts are SO powerful in attracting our circumstances)....have you tried writing a "better feeling" thought down that gives you even a tiny little bit of "relief" from the scary "worst thing possible" thoughts you have having.....here's one to start with "I am not alone in this...Moonstruck and others on online forum understand how I feel and are there to support me even if just with their words.....I am safe and all will be well".......did that work?  even a tiny little bit?....peace and love...xx

[fatima]

hey you are not alone!
I too suffered a terrible setback as a resulting of stopping my meds. 
Have gone back on them and hope to get feeling better soon but I know what you mean, its so freaking hard when you are in the middle of a panick. I can feel my heart racing and every muscle seems to contract, its so frustrating.

Its such a relief to read others are having the same, i am not just going crazy!
I have never had it this bad and taking so long but I guess this is because I am now finally ready to do something about the underlying cause instead of trying to focus on the positives only.

hang in there!

[IAMTHAT_IAM]

Hi Feather Robbin & Everyone

I am glad you have spoken to someone, there are a lot of people across the form pages trying to stop meds why? I had a on and off again existence with meds and mostly weening myself off without doctors help! silly huh?

The last time i was off them I had an anxiety panic attack, by the sounds of all posters here you all have too! I actually had thought it wasn't because I had these extreme chest pains I was in distress with ear drum beating, sweaty palms, shortness of breath and complete feeling of helplessness almost going to pass out until I did a stupid routine drank water and focussed on something stationary! I must have looked so funny! Anyway I have a history of presenting at emergency departments all over the country, but on the last occasion they made me submit a urine sample, did a ucg scan of my chest took blood looking for what was distressing me so much. They just kept going and then a really nice lady doctor took me into a quiet room and said Aaron you have nothing wrong with you medically we've done all the tests etc, I insisted they do more I stated theres really something wrong and she said its anxiety and you need some help with that, I cried. I started to go around to doctors whom have experience dealing with this and have now for 6 years been on the same medication, for the first 2-3 years I was doctor shopping to top up the meds when that wasn't available I would sometimes smoke some pot because I and I alone had made the decision I didn't want to increase my meditation and become a little sedated. One day I met a great GP whom wasn't going to give me extra medication and he said try double dose for a week and drop by daily and tell me how its going. I didn't realise how much of a difference this has made my quality of life over the last three years! So thats why I ask about meds as many forum peeps have expressed thoughts about getting of meds! 

ps on another topic re: stigma attached to mental health we are a long way with this problem, i don't have the answer but I will be part of it! take care

[eDE]

I absolutely know how it feels, I've scraped by since a kid by thinking my way around it, but some times when circumstances collide, it still hurt a lot. But I'm starting to realize that it only happens through misunderstanding what reality is and how it exists within each of us. If that sounds a bit far-fetched, crazy, or delusional, then you now have a point of reference for why you struggle. It's the opposite to what I thought of most things in a way, and there is no such thing as crazy, just different points of reference expressed, no such thing as anxiety disorder, it's called emotional communication, an evolution, and the only logically possible form of lossless communication I can observe so far.

Don't feel bad or deterred or weak or less. If you do, you're comparing yourself to an interpretation of self doubt manifest within others, which isn't even who they are. It's YOUR PERCEPTION of who they are filtered through past experience which is there for a reason... to bring you to now, to get you to there. 🙂 You're never alone!!

[Bluey_moon]

Hi Feather Robin, 

It is only in the last few years I have suffered from GAD with some OCD traits. Some days are so so hard! 

I too didn't want to go back on medication, I took myself off them after a few months (not something I would recommend)! 

But at the moment I just couldn't cope. So in order to be a good mother and wife I made the hard decision to go back on some medication and go back and see my Psycologist and Gp (both of who are awesome). 

I have a very supportive husband and friends which get me through! 

I just wanted to say, it will be ok, don't be afraid to ask for help, in whatever form you need. 

My Psycologist actually recommended a forum like this so I knew I wasn't alone! 

Hang in there, and anytime you need a listening ear, there is lots of support here!