Unfortunately each doctor handles situations differently and there isn't a strict code for how to go about certain situations. I think a lot of doctors would probably disagree, especially if you've been on it for years. I was on mine for 2+ years when I decided to try another. Tried once cold turkey and felt like I was dying, or something very similar. Not fun lol.
I understand that too, leaving the house for me is quite spooky at the moment, to put it lightly. Once you're out and about you'll notice that it's nothing to worry about, but the dread prior is real. My panic attacks have been much better since I first started trying to overcome it, and I'm super glad yours have left you. It's encouraging that they can be beat! (I haven't had one in ages but I feel like It's still a worry in the back of my mind)
It sounds to me like you're on your way forwards, new avenues awaiting you. That feeling though can be quite consuming. Try not to get caught up in it. You're doing really great! New medication + psychology could be a life changer. It's completely okay if you have a day you aren't feeling it, set backs and downward spirals, we'll overcome it in the end. Don't beat yourself up. A common phase I've heard that is meant to help with a multitude of anxious invoking situations or feelings is: "This too shall pass", and so will that backwards feeling 🙂
