Does anyone else ever feel like the thought of a normal life is impossible?

[ci]

Haven't been on here for awhile trying to focus on changing my life getting my ocd undercontrol.

Today it seems like I've bitten off more than I can chew. So overwhelmed by everything I've gone back to studying this year in my mid 30 with 3 kids and a business to run. Travelling back and forth to uni I so worried I can't do this. I'm not sure if I should quite and accept that I can only have a simple life and stay home where it's safe and easier to get through the day?

Sorry to vent on here but don't want to disappoint my family by telling them I'm not strong enough!

Does anyone else feel like this?

[ci]

Lookingforme you definitely come across like you have to offer. Do you have support of family or partner?

Is the job something you really want to do or just something to pay the bills?

[lookingforme]

Thanks. I find I am more open to gentleness and support when it comes to other people but the opposite for myself.

Na, I don't really have a support system. My family haven't been very supportive in general. When it comes to my mental health it's tantamount to aversion. I'm constantly asked if I need my meds or can't just snap out of it and be strong. They can't even say psychiatrist, if I say it they return with "your doctor." Growing up I sort of did it on my own, dealt with my disappointments and stressors on my own because I couldn't rely on them. I don't have a partner either. I had to move away from Aus back with my family because I couldn't get a job to stay, and I've left everything from my adult life behind there. I don't actually have friends here or anything. I see only my parents. It weighs heavily on me.

This job is a filler, save up some money so I am in a better position when I move countries again to do my Masters. Get some work experience also. Groceries, some kind of life quality or something. Pay the bills for the psychologist, so I can actually see one. Have someone in this time zone so it isn't all silence toward the afternoon.

[ci]

Sounds like you have a lot on your plate! What country are you in? If you don't mind me asking?

Family can make things hard believe me I get that!

I hope you get this job and your plans for the future can all fall into place it sounds like you have had your fair share of problems.

[lookingforme]

I'm in the UAE. I want to move to Canada.

Yea, family...

Thanks Ci, I appreciate it. Thanks for listening also. I hope you find some clarity also. (If you want) Let us know how you go.

[geoff]

hi Lookingforme and Ci, well there's a good point that has been made here and that's ' Have someone in this time zone so it isn't all silence toward the afternoon' raising the fact that how efficient is the psych if you are his/her last patient, and how much attention are they paying towards what we say, or are they watching the clock so they can go home themselves.
I suppose this all depends on how many patients they see during the day, and whether they call you in straight after the other patient, which wouldn't give them any time to go over the notes, even if they know you well enough to understand what has to be said. Geoff.

[Lumoflyco]

Hi Ci,

How are you feeling today? I wanted to write to you and tell you about a free service I stumbled across yesterday. I am at the point where I want to get help for how I am feeling before going to my GP. I found the MindSpot Clinic and I done an Online Screening Assessment which gets sent off to a therapist so they can review your symptoms and make suggestions on the course of action they think you will benefit from the most. They can call you with the results or email, I got mine back the same day I done it. Mine came back high in GAD and social anxiety and it was suggested I complete a Wellbeing course to help understand and manage my anxiety. It starts on the 2nd of May and runs for eight weeks, you also have a therapist for the entire time. I'm not sure if this would help you or not but I thought I would suggest it, just in case.

[ci]

Lumoflyco thank-you so much for thinking of me I will definitely look into that it sounds like a great service!

[lookingforme]

Hi Ci,

How are you doing?

[ci]

Hi lookingforme

Been a big week my decision was made for me won't go into detail it's a long story but our situation has changed and I'm unable to attend uni full time. Taking this weekend to discuss with my husband the option of part time and if we can work that out but I'm needed at work and so is my husband huge amount for the next few months.

The amount of stress we have both faced this week I'm so impressed we still standing. And to be honest uni has seemed like the last thing I should worry about.

don't get me wrong I still determined to try but I not sure how.

How are you?

[Janey21]

Yes I understand how you feel....I think that often...but I think it is possible because there are so many people on BB who suffer the same but have a functioning life. Don't give up on striving for that normal life... Your already heading in the right direction because you came on here and shared - reached out.