Can someone please help me, I have no idea what is going on.

[Livvy2511]

Hi to whoever is reading this. I hope you reply.

So I have recently gotten into a fight with my mom, (I am under 15), and I have been living with my dad for about a week with no form of communication to my mother, (my parents are separated). Today I called her and started yelling and screaming and I was out of control. I was so angry and upset and confused, all of these emotions were running through me. I still feel this way. I was shaking and crying while my mum was yelling at me. I felt so horrible inside like I had a million butterflies in my stomach and I still feel it now. At the moment I am shaking and my feeling are like numb. If that makes any sense. I have no idea what is going on. I started to research what is going on and this can up. So I thought I could write this so someone could tell me what to do. I'm not sure if I have anxiety or depression or whether I am just freakin crazy. This is all very new to me. I have been feeling down over the past couple of months and I have thought/done self harm. I know it's not right. On the phone, my mum said there is something wrong with me and that I should go see the school councelor. I felt so horrible after she said that.

My befriend, is dealing with depression and get mom has it too. The thing is, I try and everyone tries to help her, and she's practically fine, but no-one knows about me and how I feel. I just wish everyone knew but I don't want to sound like a fake attention seeker. I don't know what to do.

Can someone please help me or tell me what to do?? Thanks ❤

[Starwolf]

Welcome to the forums, Livvy.

First of all, let me reassure you...there is a huge difference between reaching out for needed help and being an attention seeker. Acknowledging there is a problem takes guts. You are a brave young woman indeed. And you are right, self-harming tendencies are a sign that there is an issue requiring attention.

I'm sure your Mum cares about you in spite of conflicting views. I suggest you take her advice and have a chat with your school counselor. No reason to be embarrassed. School counselors exist because they're in great demand and fulfill an important role. You are not a freak and would be surprised how many students need to speak with an understanding outsider. Teenage years are often troubled time. Transition between childhood and adulthood doesn't always come easy. It is just as difficult for parents... so conflict is common at the best of time.

If direct communication leads to unhelpful emotional outbursts, why not write down your feelings and concerns in a letter ? It could be edited as much as necessary and be handed over/sent when you are satisfied with it. It could be read at leisure too. It's amazing how putting feelings in writing can help clarify them to ourselves.

If the urge to self-harm comes to trouble you, why not give the 24/7 helpline a call (1300 22 4636). There's also Lifeline (13 11 14) and the Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800). Sometimes, talking with someone who cares and understands can make a huge difference to a distressed state of mind.

Headspace Australia is a supportive org for young people. Copying this link into your browser will put you in touch : https//www.headspace.org.au/

A proper diagnosis will be needed to help you figure what you are up against. A GP appointment would be the first step towards regaining control and peace of mind. Being 15, one parent would have to go with you. Anxiety is a medical condition that needs to be treated as such. Like diabetes or high BP, it is something happening to you, not caused by weakness or a flaw of character. You are in no way to blame.

Navigating the young People section of the forums will reassure you that you are far from alone. You will find there plenty terrific young people to connect/chat with.There's even a virtual Friends'Cafe to be found in the Social Zone.

Kindest thoughts.

[Livvy2511]

Thanks so much starwolf, I feel so much better!

[geoff]

hi Livvy, it's great to hear from you and I'm pleased Starwolf has given you information to hep you.
Are you able to get your dad to take you to the doctors, so that they will be able to diagnose you and then suggest what action to take.
You could also do the K-10 test which is under 'the facts' above, but can I suggest that you do it a couple of times and please let us know what the score is.
There is no guilt in telling people if you do have depression, that's something which a long time ago was taboo but not now, depression is spread all over the world, and one thing I hope you don't do is pretend that everything is OK, because it's too exhausting and eventually there will be a time when you don't have the strength to hide it, and please it's nothing to be embarrassed about, that's why this site was set up and is growing quickly every year.
Talk to your school counsellor and discuss with your dad if you feel as though your doctor could refer you to a psychologist, they are there to help you and don't ever be ashamed in doing this.
If your mum also has depression and whether or not she is taking medication, I would leave talking with her to be kept minimal. Geoff.

[Muddlee]

Hi Livvy2511,

First thing I want to say how brave you are and how much respect I have for you for reaching out. It takes a lot of courage to talk about your feelings in general and from what I've read your way more capable than you think.

From what you've posted you don't sound like an attention seeker at all. Having parents separated is not something I have personally experienced but friends have told me their hardships and how diffiu

[Muddlee]

*diffiult it can be. And I hope you get a chance to see your school counsellor or even someone private like your GP to help you out because they do offer some great services that can definitely make your situation easier.

All the best and hope this helps

Muddleee